It is tonight
That I wish to close my eyes
And wish that opening them again
Would be impossible
Because my days
Are filled with mistakes
Filled with so much pain
That I cause to the
People I love
I didnt even mean to
What the **** am I doing
What the **** am I thinking
Am I even ******* thinking
I am a joke.
Do I make you laugh?
No
That is how much of a joke I am
Lies
Lies
Lies
How can I not even be ******* aware
That they are all lies
I am stupid.
I've lost you
That is for sure
But if you would ever come back,
I'll hold you closer
tighter
Than ever
Because losing you kills me.

she is controlled by her demanding parents.
he is controlled by his persuasive boss.
she is controlled by the heavy pressure of the world.
he is controlled by every one around him.
and when they meet,
the control will stop
and no longer invade their lives.
the controlling souls would die,
just so free souls can be born.

All this poetry I read,
Takes me back to times of you,
You control my mind...
So now,
What am I supposed to do?