Don't listen to that voice
The one within your mind
That tells you everything is going to be okay

Because it's not

You know it's not

You struggle every day and every night
Always tired of this fight
It draws you in and lures you too far
Then you're trapped and there's no going back
So why bother?

Why bother?
Why care?
It's not like anyone is there
To hear you cry out for help
Or to see you reach out desperately

So you sit there and you cry

Until the one you truly love comes along
To pull you back from the depths of the hell within your head

Alone sits a girl
Crying
Holding her knees
Her long hair covering her face
The sounds of her weeping
Drives you mad

The night is silent
Not a sound goes around
The air is still
I can hear my heart pound
Thoughts of you come rushing through
Carefully easing the stress
Only you are in my mind
For once it's not a mess
I close my eyes and try to sleep
The silence is too thick
For all the feelings that I get
They simply just won't click

She looked into his eyes
And saw nothing
Not even a trace
Love was nonexistent
And tears rolled down her face
Do I dare believe in love she said
Do I dare be fooled by temptation?
No one will ever know
The tragedy of her situation

He's better off with a prettier girl
One who isn't me
I hope she takes good care of him
There's plenty of fish in the sea

I love the way he talks to me
In a gentle loving tone
Though I don't know much about him
I just hate being alone
So maybe one day
If things go well
Maybe I'll find the one
And I hope he treats me well

Why can't I be the one
To live and love and learn
To live a life of happiness
Of love that will always burn
Why can't I be someone
Attractive in many ways
Why must I live alone
And suffer darker days
Why can't I love someone
Who loves me just the same
I know I'm not worthy
And it's really quite a shame
Why can't they accept me
For who I really am
Just a little hint of care
And the world wouldn't be so bland

I love the way you look at me
With that sparkle in your eyes
The way you love me they still can't see
How hard you really try
You're trying, I know
And I love you for you
I love you more than you will ever know
And I hope one day you'll feel it too

Your touch heals every broken bit
But I will never heal
For you have left without a word
And I am forced to kneel
And beg to the skies
For you to be mine
Once again I sit and cry
I can't imagine a world
Without you
I can only die inside
Nothing lasts forever
People come and go
Yet you were special
And I hope you know
That never again
Will I feel your touch
Your gentle arms around me
Never again will I hurt this much
For you have made me emotionless
The hurt that lasts from losing you
Will be the last emotion I feel
The only emotion to rage on and on
And never again will it stop

Although I've only met you once
I can't stop this feeling inside
What it is I just can't tell
But it's all over my mind
You're in my thoughts every day
From dawn to dusk you're there
Hidden within my thoughts
It's a feeling I just can't bear
I hope I don't mess up again
I really like you a ton
I hope we meet again sometime
Under a beautiful dazzling sun
Your compliments warm my heart
A feeling so nice and pure
You're sincere and genuine
Of this I'm pretty sure
I hope with time you feel it too
Maybe my dream will come true
My dream is a secret ok?
I'm not even sharing a clue
But one day when I achieve my dream
You will finally know my goal
On that day I'll be yours
And happiness will fill our souls

Can I see you
Just one last time
Long enough
To tell you how I feel
...
Heh this is great
Here you are
Here I am
You think I'm going to say
"I love you"
Why should I say that
If every time I've said it before
All you did was ignore
Why should I love you?
...
Tell me...
You never cared did you?
You lured me in
Only to cast me aside
After you've had your fun
You're worth nothing to me
As I was worthless to you
...
All I have is hate and regret
Not a bit of any love left
I spent time...money...and now
I don't have any ***** to give anymore

On your deepest darkest days
Remember the tone of my voice
So gentle, kind, and loving
I am your only choice
For the world has granted you to me
and my love for you is strong
Don't ever leave and let me be
For I will tell you it is wrong
I met you by chance and loved what I got
You're the perfect fit for me
Because you're everything I love and unfaithful you are not
You're all I want to see
I love you even when I'm mad
Nothing stands in my way
I love you even when I'm sad
And I hope it always stays this way

That look in your eyes
Tells me all I need to know
The way you feel
Is written right there
And this is why
I close my eyes
And only open them
To stare into yours

Painful tears drip down my face
Like rain gently sliding off the leaves
There is no hope left, not even a trace
But to you I beg and plead
Will you take my heart
And end my pain?
I've fallen apart
And the others are to blame
Please love me with all your soul
For this broken one feels very cold
And as the future looks dark and hazed
At least with you my soul can be saved

If I didn’t have you
Life would look so blue
Or gray and white and black as night
If only I could keep up this fight
To be by your side and see your smile
I would even travel several miles
Just to be with you again
But for now, all my love I will send

Colder than ice
She shivers in the dark
The darkness in which she resides
She can't escape the horrors
Of everything in her mind
The darkness that she created once
It only grows and grows
And somehow she thought that this
Is what she wanted all along
She slips silently into a darker world
With every passing minute
And even though she reaches out
No one can hear her scream

H-E-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
Am I the only one?
It's easy to fake a smile
When you've been doing it for a while
People don't care
If all you do is stare
Into nothing but a dark void

Ever wondered why they call it
A crush?
Ever wondered why it's so hard
To get them to notice you?
It's called a crush...
Because you never know
They could like you too
But you'd never know
It's scary to think about
The future with them
All the possibilities
Are just overwhelming
You could be friend zoned
Or forgotten or ditched
And if things go well for a while
You could be left broken hearted
I hate crushes
The agonizing pain
Of your love not being returned
Until you tell them
But when you tell them
You hold your breath
Scared of the outcome
And when all they say is
"I don't know how I feel"
It's not a definite no
But it's still disappointing

I hate the way you look at me
Cold eyes that stare back
Nothing seems more distant
Than the stone cold stare from your soul, black

Get the hell away from me
The lies you've told tear into my skin
There is no good left in this world
All that's left is pure and evil sin

All the tears and all the blood
You've spilled enough already
I can no longer stand on my own
I feel very weak and unsteady

Will the light never shine again?
Will I ever get to see my own eyes?
The cold dark eyes that stare back at me
They're just an illusion, all lies

Can I borrow your eyes for a bit
To see the world as you do?
It's not fair that you're so happy
When your world is falling apart
How can you smile as  they all walk away?
Your family?
Your friends?
Your love?
How can you live like that?

With no emotion left to feel
The world turns a dark gray
I see it through your eyes
A monochrome world
With nothing left to feel
Yet you smile bright...
Is it because you know?
Is it because you know your time is up soon?
Either way whether you know it or not
This view of yours makes me want to cry

The colors of the world today
I wonder which is yours
So many colors to choose from
But sadly it can't be done
You're just not able to choose a color
It's chosen just for you
Whatever the best fit is
That color that says it all
So try your best to shape that color
Into a radiant vibrant hue
Like flowers dipped into dyed water
We too can become more vivid
Are you a soft gentle pastel color?
Or perhaps a bright neon shade?
You could be a deep dark velvet dye
Something so breathtakingly pure
That it's been perfected over the years
To match the inner you
As people change
Colors shift
And no one is the same

Don't ever look back on the mistakes you made
You've already learned your lesson
Don't dwell on those people who you once loved
It will only bring sorrow and pain

But what if those people were stupid as hell
And never deserved your love?
You can laugh at them now
As they trip and fall
Into a pit of pure comedy

Their life is a sad joke
And they'll never get far
Just because the way that they are
They're hopeless

I like to laugh a little sometimes
At the lives of each of them
They stumble and fall ad don't know why
Those stupid people I used to trust

But now as I can laugh about it
I'm sure they can only regret it
Although it doesn't matter anymore
Because now I am free

The gift I gave you
Meant so much to me
And when you left
You threw it away

Now there's nothing left to say

The darkness grips my shoulders
The silence claws at my skin
What am I to do with such a broken soul?
Broken not once but many times
By the people I thought would care
But in truth we are simply alone
No one feels like me
No one feels love the way I do
No one knows the darkness that suffocates me
And in turn I don't know you
Your smile is warm but you're breaking inside
You're trying to hide the scars on your soul
But even then those scars bleed through I can see
And your laughter feels hollow as well
Tell me, do you want to know...
Do you want to know what the light feels like?
Do want to dance in the sun?
Do you want to feel the smoothness
Of the sand between your toes?
Tell me, do you wish sometimes....
Do you wish that you could be happy?
Do you wish that you had friends?
Do you wish you had a lover
Who so easily could mend?
They could mend the gashes in your heart
The slashes left by those that you loved
They could heal you bit by bit
But only if you try
Only if you leave behind
The darkness that you love so much
Only if you leave behind
Those hopeless wants you clutch
So leave it all
Leave it all behind
And open your eyes
To a brand new day

Through the mists I see
A hidden valley shrouded
In cold chilly air
A mystic place of beauty
A beautiful sight to see

Windows left open wide
That can only see a dream
A dreamy world where all is fine
No sorrow or hate in sight
A world in which everyone
Is free to do as they wish
For only good can thrive here
In a world such as this

How can you tell
If they're the right one for you?
How will I know
When my dreams have come true?
When I met you
My world grew bright
But there's still darkness
Behind all the light
I know I know
I'm going fast
But I'm just scared
I have a darkened past
If you just give me a chance
Maybe we'll both succeed
Although I'm thinking too fast
Can you please just take the lead?
I'm not sure how all this works
How am I supposed to know?
I've never felt a crush like this
It's purer than soft white snow
All I can do is hope for the best
Please I want you by my side
Although it's all too soon they say
I have a feeling all that's a lie

When I ask for help
Who will come?
My head is filled with darkness
The fog is just too thick
Where am I now?
Nothing seems to click
The whispered voices
Of the thoughts I bear
Torment me to tears
Even then, no one cares
When I ask for help
Who will come?
No one has come
So now I am done

I can't stand those people
Who don't know when to stop
Or even when not to start at all
I can't contain my anger
As I hit the keys to type
How dare you think to speak to me as if you know me well
I sure hope that all of you simply burn in Hell

I have lots of friends you see
Lots of people that admire me
Truth be told you cannot see them
Truth be told you cannot hear them
Yet they are there cheering me on
Gale, Sarah, Kai, Chelsea,  and so on
Lots of friends gather around
No one ever making a sound
Yet words are heard
And words are said
And that's when they tied me to that bed
Told me I was crazy
Said I was insane
But really? C'mon guys...
Let's all play the game

No one knows
No one sees
The ghostly faded parts of me

I smile, laugh, and put on a mask
A simple facade
But will it last?

You say you love me
I say I do too
But is any of this really even true?

Words are tricky
Use them wisely
I say hello
You say goodbye
When will our words
Reach the sky?
And intertwine
Like a graceful dance
Use your words now
It's your final chance
I say hello
You say it too
Now I know
You've gotten the clue
I say I love you
You say why's that?
I look to the sky
And let out a simple laugh
You're kind and smart
And gentle and strong
What do you think?
Am I actually wrong?
I turn to your eyes
So vibrant and blue
All I want now
Is to spend time with you

The piano sits in the middle of the plaza
The moonlight casts its glow
The keys are tapped with gentle hands
And the notes that play are slow

As time goes on and the lamplight flickers
The piano sounds amazing
A crowd then gathers all around
And everyone is gazing

The soft gentle light of the moon shines bright
And the piano continues to sing
The hands that flow across the keys
Play perfectly, never ceasing

As the moon begins to sleep
The sun begins to wake
And yet the piano still sings a song
A beautiful melody that makes the heart ache

The pianist then picks up the pace
The music starts to lighten
Your heart will soar above the clouds
And your soul will brighten

The piano slowly fades away as the pianist concludes the song
The midnight performance comes to a halt and everyone applauds
The pianist takes a bow and waves as they cheer for more
After a beautiful performance that touched all to the core

Money can't buy happiness
That's what we are told
Then why are our hearts filled with greed?
Greedy world leaders leads to war
And selfish partners lead to broken hearts
Why does the world revolve around money?

Money is the root of all that is evil
Once we get a taste we always want more
Nothing in life matters more than money
Everyone needs it
You can't change that fact

Lonely was I who didn't even try
To see the light right there in his eyes
Lonely was the girl who refused to see
Always pretending she was blind like he

Yet stumble, trip, and fall
Hands against the wall
I look up and see
Your beautiful eyes staring back at me

So many people in this world
So many guys to choose from
I turn and look all around
But something's missing and can't be found
I wander the streets in search of love
A love like no other I felt before
I bumped into you by chance online
You used a witty pick up line
And from the start I fell in love
A love I had never felt before
You picked up the pieces of my heart
I chose you from the start
To be the one that makes me smile
As I look at my phone and walk into a pole
Yes, a pole, we're idiots in a way
"But your my idiot" is what I hear you say
You're the best a girl could hope for
I've finally found what I've been seeking all along
I love you and you love me too
This is why I choose you

From dawn to dusk
The sun rises and falls
Just let the wind
Take care of it all
My love is pure
Like a shining lake
For you I'd do anything
It's a promise I'll make
So don't you worry
For this is simply a trial
To see if one day
I'd be walking down that aisle

It hurts and hurts and always will
I begged and pleaded "please don't go"
And yet you still have left me
And I am broken once more

I loved and loved and lost you
I couldn't make you stay
But that's ok for there will be a day
I find happiness in something else

Dazzling lights across the sky
A moment of peace to catch one's eye
As the sun slips below
The moon rises with another day in tow
Lightly resting on the horizon's edge
She whispers softly a single pledge
To find her love once again
So that her broken heart may mend
So she can see another day
And to her "I love you" he will say

I'm sorry I couldn't be better
I'm sorry it didn't work out
Those words you say so confidently
Breaks my heart in two
I wish I could have stopped you
I wish I would've kissed you goodbye
I don't regret meeting you
I don't regret loving you
I just wish you'd stay
I never wanted this
You didn't either
But you still left
And I'll never forget you

If a little bit of you dies each day
I wonder how long you'll live
How much of you is left?
How is it that you keep going?
The sand runs quicker than you think
You don't have much left
Though you gain sand from happiness
But that itself is scarce
So what will you do?
Will you waste away?
Or will you live to see another day?

Stars shine bright in a velvet sea
Darkness engulfs the world
The moon's gentle glow casts over me
And soon it starts to snow
Lovely isn't it?
The beauty of night
Gentle breeze to whisk away
All your tears and fright

Staring out the open window
Feeling the breeze whip through my hair
Lightning strikes again and again
But the rain feels so pleasant
The wind howls through the trees
As I sit there on my knees
Begging the world to please
Please love one another
And stop the ridiculous waves of hate

Call me crazy, but I love to write
About the things I wish I had
A love like no other to hold on to so tight
But only to let go in the end
People come and go all the time
Friends only last a short while
All I want is to find a person
Who is worthy of my friendship
A friend like no other
One who will stay
One who will support me in my darkest days
Is it so wrong to have these wants?
Call me crazy, but I think I'm alone

As the sun rises over snow-peaked tops
And the moon sinks beneath the vast ocean
Adventure awaits for those who seek it
A treasure hides sealed away in a forgotten place
A sword that rests in stone
To only be pulled when the hero has regained his strength
For a deep century sleep has weakened his body
And wipes his memory clean
All but his name
The princess awaits his return
She's trapped in the castle
Tied to the task of keeping evil at bay
But she can not hold it forever
For the calamity with strike again someday
And the hero must be ready

I've set a goal
To reach a dream
By 2020
I wish to gleam

I'll smile bright
As I walk down that aisle
Tears of joy
Won't stop my smile

As I reach the front
Looking at you
All I see
Are vibrant hues

Love is tricky
Yes it is
But knowing this
I will still be his

One of these days, I want
To find a guy to take away my heart
Someone to spend every day with
Some guy to enjoy all my time with


One of these days, I will...
Get to know you better and still
Love you more with every passing day
At least that's part of what I wanna say

Every other day I'm wondering
Is this what love is really like?
I really can not wait for the day
When I can  forever call you mine

Every other day I'm wondering
Do you feel the same way too?
I know you're just as happy
'Cause I know that you love me too

I don't need anyone else
You're the only one for me
"Isn't that guy pretty hot too?"
You're the only one I see

I think that you're the perfect guy
To always be right at my side
I hope that I will do my best
To keep your heart in my best interest

Every other day I'm wondering
Is this what love is really like?
I really can not wait for the day
When I can  forever call you mine

Every other day I'm wondering
Do you feel the same way too?
I know you're just as happy
'Cause I know that you love me too

Just watch me walking down that aisle
Encouraged by your gentle smile
I feel a tear run down my cheek
Happiness at it's best this week

Holding your gentle hands in mine
How did life ever get this fine?
I'll always be by your side
If you promise to always stay by mine

Every other day I'm wondering
Is this what love is really like?
I really can not wait for the day
When I can  forever call you mine

Every other day I'm wondering
Do you feel the same way too?
I know you're just as happy
'Cause I know that you love me too

Da da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da
'Cause I know that you love me too

Da da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da
'Cause I know that you love me too

To the one who stole my heart and holds it close and dear
I miss you every day that passes every day so bright and clear
I was nothing but a wasted life until you came along
People passed me right on by as if I was a boring song
No one on this earth today could make me feel this high
You have a special touch that comforts when I cry
I love you more than anything because you are my life
Losing you would hurt more than being severed by a knife
Nights are cold without you here
I can not sleep because I fear
I'm scared of the day, the day that we die
At least I know your love wasn't a lie