I've set a goal
To reach a dream
By 2020
I wish to gleam

I'll smile bright
As I walk down that aisle
Tears of joy
Won't stop my smile

As I reach the front
Looking at you
All I see
Are vibrant hues

Love is tricky
Yes it is
But knowing this
I will still be his

I'm out on my own
Been kicked out for a while
No one seems to remember my smile
Of when I was a happy girl
Without anything to stress about  
But now I'm drowning in my own self doubt

"Live on your own!" they said
"It will be fun!" they said.
I think I'd rather just stay in bed...
And cry like there's no tomorrow
So I can slowly wash away the sorrow

Living alone is not what they say...
I cry like a child every day.
What's worse is that I'm an adult these days
And acting like a child won't get you paid.

Frozen, cold, frigid, and still
My heart is solid
Say what you will

I know I'm broken
I know I can't love myself
You still see light in me
Yet I see nothing else

You loved me when I couldn't love myself
That is what makes you unique
So many have given up
And my world was looking bleak

Dripping down like misty rain
My tears fall down
Each one filled with pain

No one has ever looked at me
The way that you do
That smile of yours
And those vibrant eyes so blue
I can't look away
Because I'm so in love with you

Poetry is like cooking
Poets are like chefs
We start with the basic recipe and add to it
Hoping that the reader will enjoy all of it
Starting with a favorite format
We add this and a little of that
Some sadness here and laughter there
Emotions flowing everywhere!
So how do you like your meal today?
It is a little too bland you say?
Then I'll throw in some sugar and add some spice
Hopefully you enjoy this slice of life

Walking home from work one day
Along the wall made of clay
I see a note upon my door
And as I entered, flower petals on the floor
They lead to the backyard, a patio so fresh
I seem to think this is a test
But as I walk outside I see
You are there waiting for me
As the sun starts to set
I feel like I did when we first met

Through the darkest of days lie pitch black depths
You sink deeper and faster with each passing moment
They said you'd be fine and all would go well
Until the room goes dark and things start to spin
The air gets cold and it's hard to breathe
As the tight constricting grip squeezes the life from your body
You struggle and fight to keep yourself sane
But in the end its all just a waste
Don't trust them, don't like them
It's all just a nightmare
But when you wake up you're still there
There where the darkness crept up to you
Because it will never let you go

Painful tears drip down my face
Like rain gently sliding off the leaves
There is no hope left, not even a trace
But to you I beg and plead
Will you take my heart
And end my pain?
I've fallen apart
And the others are to blame
Please love me with all your soul
For this broken one feels very cold
And as the future looks dark and hazed
At least with you my soul can be saved

Congratulations to my little bro
Who's a master in the sport of volleyball
All that time and effort you've spent
Has paid off in the end
Mom is proud and so is dad
But so is your sister too
Good job earning that medal
And I hope you had fun
You and your teammates have had a good run

As the sun rises over snow-peaked tops
And the moon sinks beneath the vast ocean
Adventure awaits for those who seek it
A treasure hides sealed away in a forgotten place
A sword that rests in stone
To only be pulled when the hero has regained his strength
For a deep century sleep has weakened his body
And wipes his memory clean
All but his name
The princess awaits his return
She's trapped in the castle
Tied to the task of keeping evil at bay
But she can not hold it forever
For the calamity with strike again someday
And the hero must be ready

Tell me tell me do you know
The story of the heart that glows?
A heart so pure and bright at night
It's beauty really is quite the sight
But do you know that it is no more?
There are scattered bits upon the floor
The heart that once had glowed so bright
Now weeps and cries itself to sleep at night

I can't stand those people
Who don't know when to stop
Or even when not to start at all
I can't contain my anger
As I hit the keys to type
How dare you think to speak to me as if you know me well
I sure hope that all of you simply burn in Hell

Call me crazy, but I love to write
About the things I wish I had
A love like no other to hold on to so tight
But only to let go in the end
People come and go all the time
Friends only last a short while
All I want is to find a person
Who is worthy of my friendship
A friend like no other
One who will stay
One who will support me in my darkest days
Is it so wrong to have these wants?
Call me crazy, but I think I'm alone

As I gaze upon the stars at night
Let me hold you close and tight
No one knows when it will end
So please just allow me to spend
All my time with you forever
Before the day this world is severed

The stars shine bright upon this blanket of night
Why is it that we always fight?
Little things, here and there
To start arguments everywhere

Sometimes I wonder why
All the gods in the sky
Gave me the life they chose
I am nothing more than a dying rose
Once long ago shimmering with life
And now all I long for is a knife
To sever me from all my trouble
Hoping to escape into a bubble

This bubble of sorrow, it envelopes me
And now your love is all I see

Chilled as Arctic Ice
Devoid of any emotion
She lays still at the bottom of the sea
Waiting for someone to set her free

Deep and dark like the depths of the sea
My soul is darker than the blackest tea
Smile I may but that's all a lie
All I really want to do is cry
In order for one to truly be happy...
Don't finish that, it sounds way to sappy
I favor the dark and retreat from the light
It's just how I am, no reason to fight
So don't look at me like I can be saved
Diving into darkness is just what I crave

Dearest dearest wishes from the heart
We don't know when they'll fall apart
Scattered dreams
A broken mess
Why can't I pass this horrible test?
The test of life is so unfair
I cry and cry and tug my hair
Yet only one of you can overcome
The hatred I have for all of them
I hate humans yes it's true
As I hate the sky so blue
Yet one of you has earned my trust
So only love me if you must

I love the way he talks to me
In a gentle loving tone
Though I don't know much about him
I just hate being alone
So maybe one day
If things go well
Maybe I'll find the one
And I hope he treats me well

They ask me why I'm so quiet and shy
But they don't realize what goes on inside
A tortured soul with violent raging thoughts
A lonely corpse being dragged through each hell
I don't say a word nor gesture or smile
Because if they knew...
They wouldn't last the while
Because no one plans a ****** out loud

Don't listen to that voice
The one within your mind
That tells you everything is going to be okay

Because it's not

You know it's not

You struggle every day and every night
Always tired of this fight
It draws you in and lures you too far
Then you're trapped and there's no going back
So why bother?

Why bother?
Why care?
It's not like anyone is there
To hear you cry out for help
Or to see you reach out desperately

So you sit there and you cry

Until the one you truly love comes along
To pull you back from the depths of the hell within your head

Colder than ice
She shivers in the dark
The darkness in which she resides
She can't escape the horrors
Of everything in her mind
The darkness that she created once
It only grows and grows
And somehow she thought that this
Is what she wanted all along
She slips silently into a darker world
With every passing minute
And even though she reaches out
No one can hear her scream

She looked into his eyes
And saw nothing
Not even a trace
Love was nonexistent
And tears rolled down her face
Do I dare believe in love she said
Do I dare be fooled by temptation?
No one will ever know
The tragedy of her situation

How can you love me?
There's nothing to like
Yet you can't look away
So what is that like?
To look at me and see some good
I'd never know
I wish I could
You see the light inside
That I thought burned out long ago
You told me to look and I tried
But nothing was there even so
Yet here you stand not willing to leave
And here I stay only able to grieve
So why do you love me?
Why do you care?
All hope is lost
And yet you're still there

No one knows
No one sees
The ghostly faded parts of me

I smile, laugh, and put on a mask
A simple facade
But will it last?

You say you love me
I say I do too
But is any of this really even true?

Stars shine bright in a velvet sea
Darkness engulfs the world
The moon's gentle glow casts over me
And soon it starts to snow
Lovely isn't it?
The beauty of night
Gentle breeze to whisk away
All your tears and fright

When you left
You left a gap
A hole in a once strong bond
Our family slowly drifted apart
We wept and cried but not for long
For we knew we'd see you again one day
When our time has finally come
But you're not here and I feel alone
I'd like a little advice, just some

When I ask for help
Who will come?
My head is filled with darkness
The fog is just too thick
Where am I now?
Nothing seems to click
The whispered voices
Of the thoughts I bear
Torment me to tears
Even then, no one cares
When I ask for help
Who will come?
No one has come
So now I am done

The piano sits in the middle of the plaza
The moonlight casts its glow
The keys are tapped with gentle hands
And the notes that play are slow

As time goes on and the lamplight flickers
The piano sounds amazing
A crowd then gathers all around
And everyone is gazing

The soft gentle light of the moon shines bright
And the piano continues to sing
The hands that flow across the keys
Play perfectly, never ceasing

As the moon begins to sleep
The sun begins to wake
And yet the piano still sings a song
A beautiful melody that makes the heart ache

The pianist then picks up the pace
The music starts to lighten
Your heart will soar above the clouds
And your soul will brighten

The piano slowly fades away as the pianist concludes the song
The midnight performance comes to a halt and everyone applauds
The pianist takes a bow and waves as they cheer for more
After a beautiful performance that touched all to the core

If my words can reach you
Hear me out
Those voices in my head
They only shout
They tell me to leave
That this isn't right
That I should just go
It's not worth the fight
But what do I care?
I wouldn't know
If this is all wrong
Then just end the show
Draw the curtain
Dim the lights
The actress is dead
She's nowhere in sight

Sitting by the fire
Snuggled up next to you
A warm cup of tea
And two cats sleeping nearby
The winds swirl around our home
The home that you made for me and you
Holding my belly to keep our child warm
As the temperature stays so cold
Wrapped in a blanket and filled with your love
I gently close my eyes
And hope to make this moment last
For eternity

That look in your eyes
Tells me all I need to know
The way you feel
Is written right there
And this is why
I close my eyes
And only open them
To stare into yours

The colors of the world today
I wonder which is yours
So many colors to choose from
But sadly it can't be done
You're just not able to choose a color
It's chosen just for you
Whatever the best fit is
That color that says it all
So try your best to shape that color
Into a radiant vibrant hue
Like flowers dipped into dyed water
We too can become more vivid
Are you a soft gentle pastel color?
Or perhaps a bright neon shade?
You could be a deep dark velvet dye
Something so breathtakingly pure
That it's been perfected over the years
To match the inner you
As people change
Colors shift
And no one is the same

Through space and time, heaven and hell
The sky is where the goddess dwells
She sees the world with a look of disgust
There is no other soul that she can trust
Each nation on Earth, different leaders to each
She watches as they can't practice what they preach
Hypocrisy here and narcissism there
There is a darkness lingering in the air
A perfect world she must create
In order to change the world before its too late

I'm sorry I couldn't be better
I'm sorry it didn't work out
Those words you say so confidently
Breaks my heart in two
I wish I could have stopped you
I wish I would've kissed you goodbye
I don't regret meeting you
I don't regret loving you
I just wish you'd stay
I never wanted this
You didn't either
But you still left
And I'll never forget you

The night is silent
Not a sound goes around
The air is still
I can hear my heart pound
Thoughts of you come rushing through
Carefully easing the stress
Only you are in my mind
For once it's not a mess
I close my eyes and try to sleep
The silence is too thick
For all the feelings that I get
They simply just won't click

As she lay dying from a broken heart and severed soul
Loving him had taken a toll
Her body no longer moved
And her eyes could only stare
If only he hadn't died
Life just isn't fair...
Moving on into the next life
Wouldn't be so bad right?
If only she could let him hear her last thoughts
But her stomach was already tied in knots
Gut wrenching was his death to her
Now he rests six feet under
And no longer can they hear her cries
As she reaches slowly to the sky
And begging the goddess to send him back
Before her world fades to black

Look into my eyes and tell me what you see
Heartbreak, sorrow, and broken bits of me
Look at what you've done to me
The days turn dark and extremely cold
I should have listened to what they told
They told me no, that it was all a lie
But I couldn't resist that look in your eye
And now that I've fallen - hard and fast
I now know we weren't meant to last

Although I've only met you once
I can't stop this feeling inside
What it is I just can't tell
But it's all over my mind
You're in my thoughts every day
From dawn to dusk you're there
Hidden within my thoughts
It's a feeling I just can't bear
I hope I don't mess up again
I really like you a ton
I hope we meet again sometime
Under a beautiful dazzling sun
Your compliments warm my heart
A feeling so nice and pure
You're sincere and genuine
Of this I'm pretty sure
I hope with time you feel it too
Maybe my dream will come true
My dream is a secret ok?
I'm not even sharing a clue
But one day when I achieve my dream
You will finally know my goal
On that day I'll be yours
And happiness will fill our souls

Dazzling lights across the sky
A moment of peace to catch one's eye
As the sun slips below
The moon rises with another day in tow
Lightly resting on the horizon's edge
She whispers softly a single pledge
To find her love once again
So that her broken heart may mend
So she can see another day
And to her "I love you" he will say

If a little bit of you dies each day
I wonder how long you'll live
How much of you is left?
How is it that you keep going?
The sand runs quicker than you think
You don't have much left
Though you gain sand from happiness
But that itself is scarce
So what will you do?
Will you waste away?
Or will you live to see another day?

How can you tell
If they're the right one for you?
How will I know
When my dreams have come true?
When I met you
My world grew bright
But there's still darkness
Behind all the light
I know I know
I'm going fast
But I'm just scared
I have a darkened past
If you just give me a chance
Maybe we'll both succeed
Although I'm thinking too fast
Can you please just take the lead?
I'm not sure how all this works
How am I supposed to know?
I've never felt a crush like this
It's purer than soft white snow
All I can do is hope for the best
Please I want you by my side
Although it's all too soon they say
I have a feeling all that's a lie

Alone stands a girl at the water's edge
Staring longingly into the mist
Slowly she reaches a hand out
Stretching it out in front of her
As if begging him to come back
But he is long gone lost in the fog
Slowly, one by one, faster and faster
The tears start to fall from her face
Knowing deep within her soul
The fate she must endure
A shadow shrouds her in darkness
And for the first time in her life
She feels an immeasurable amount of terror
Life itself flashing quickly
A sharp pain but then it's gone
Everything is silent and her world has gone dark
Is this what death feels like?

It hurts and hurts and always will
I begged and pleaded "please don't go"
And yet you still have left me
And I am broken once more

I loved and loved and lost you
I couldn't make you stay
But that's ok for there will be a day
I find happiness in something else

So many people in this world
So many guys to choose from
I turn and look all around
But something's missing and can't be found
I wander the streets in search of love
A love like no other I felt before
I bumped into you by chance online
You used a witty pick up line
And from the start I fell in love
A love I had never felt before
You picked up the pieces of my heart
I chose you from the start
To be the one that makes me smile
As I look at my phone and walk into a pole
Yes, a pole, we're idiots in a way
"But your my idiot" is what I hear you say
You're the best a girl could hope for
I've finally found what I've been seeking all along
I love you and you love me too
This is why I choose you

If I didn’t have you
Life would look so blue
Or gray and white and black as night
If only I could keep up this fight
To be by your side and see your smile
I would even travel several miles
Just to be with you again
But for now, all my love I will send

I have lots of friends you see
Lots of people that admire me
Truth be told you cannot see them
Truth be told you cannot hear them
Yet they are there cheering me on
Gale, Sarah, Kai, Chelsea,  and so on
Lots of friends gather around
No one ever making a sound
Yet words are heard
And words are said
And that's when they tied me to that bed
Told me I was crazy
Said I was insane
But really? C'mon guys...
Let's all play the game

You said you loved me
You said you needed me
You said you'd never leave
What a waste of time
Don't waste your breath
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough
I'm sorry I wasn't enough
I'm sorry that I loved you

H-E-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
Am I the only one?
It's easy to fake a smile
When you've been doing it for a while
People don't care
If all you do is stare
Into nothing but a dark void

I hate the way you look at me
Cold eyes that stare back
Nothing seems more distant
Than the stone cold stare from your soul, black

Get the hell away from me
The lies you've told tear into my skin
There is no good left in this world
All that's left is pure and evil sin

All the tears and all the blood
You've spilled enough already
I can no longer stand on my own
I feel very weak and unsteady

Will the light never shine again?
Will I ever get to see my own eyes?
The cold dark eyes that stare back at me
They're just an illusion, all lies