They say when you’re in love your happy.
What happens if your not?

I’m 5’1
I have blonde red hair
I wake up every morning and pray thanks
I do things everyday that I’m scared to do
I fight everyday against Anorexia Nervosa
I remind myself everyday my happiness is first

This is Me

Pink hair she stands in front of me
She looks back smiles at me
Tells me how pretty I am
Not even half a minute later
I put earbuds in and she tells her friend
What a freak.

Blondish Brown hair sits near me
Tells me how glad she is we are friends
I think wow I’m so glad too
Life without her would be so dull
She’s my rock and gets me to do fun things.

The scary part is these people are the exact same people just a year difference in time.

I desire a love like no other
I desire the attention I deserve
I desire hugs
I desire the butterflies in my stomach
I desire the cuddles I endlessly need

I deserve to be respected
I deserve to be a priority
I deserve to be ability to smile for no reason
I deserve the ability to love who I want
I deserve the honest truth

It's a warm sunny day
Windows rolled down
Hood of the jeep down
Smiling thinking what a wonderful day

The sun is always present even when it's cloudy
I wish I was the sun was like my happiness
The darkness I experience is always cloudy
They say it will end I’m wondering when it will.

Because
I could see your smile
For a single
Moment

I realized there are
A thousand little things
I would never change
About you