I count all the times
I was left to my own device,
and I **** myself a little every time.

Sun kissed,

And still learning to walk on fire.

I saw him first at the red light,
His phone in his hand and his hat on his head,
Normal and bright, I fell in love.

If I were a male peacock,
I would’ve flashed him,
Strutted on my heels and showed him all my colors.

If I were a male peacock,
I would’ve stopped traffic to prance and dance,
Until he noticed me.

If I were more than just me,
I would ignore every excuse,
And make him see all my colors.

But I’m not, I’m just me.
And the light already turned green;
He’s gone.
And I am not a male peacock.

Life can be everything,
And sometimes it can be nothing,
When asked “why am I like this”
I respond with life,
When asked “where am I going”
I respond with life,
And when I am left with nothing,
My God, let there be life.

Sit still my friend
The world turns for you and me.
We yelled whatever,
And threw ourselves over concrete hills,
Smiled through toothless lips and swallowed blood,
I know what you know,
And we know nothing.

I fell in love with crazy at first sight,
Saw him walking ahead of me and I ran to meet him
Held onto him like I had nothing to lose
Let go of the people who loved me the most
In the hopes he would be my soft padding
When I fall

He was not,
But I loved him anyway.

Madness passes through blood
whether giving or receiving,
It all happens through wounds and bruises,
Madness is inherited through the bloodiest time of our life.

I can’t lie to the sun and make it mine, but my skin still burns the same way
The clouds that can never be captured still finds time to shade me from light
And the trees that sway freely offer me a space to lie down when I feel like climbing
My foot still leaves footprints in the sand even when I walk away
And even though I am a stranger the birds still sing me a song of goodbye
Like my presence would be missed one day.

The river is here
The nations are around it
Around it we live

The river is here
Under my skin as I go
Take me down to the ocean

The river is here
Where the nations are growing
People, look over here

The river is here
Put your ears toward the ground
Feel the earth pulsing

The river is here
It is telling us in truth
Listen as it speaks

She was pretty,
–Unconventionally.

She was an evening dress.
Red lipstick,
By the poolside.

She was a warm hug,
Served with a side of her smile.

She was the home for the man she adored,
The chicken noodle soup on a cold day.

She was everything to everyone,
But still held in the hands of love,
Fitted curve to curve.

I once implanted strangeness into my gown,
and when I slept I dreamt of strange worlds
I ingrained it into my skin to only be my strange self.
The others would avoid me because I was Strange from first to last look,
Little did they know,
that they were all strange, too.

The sun was shining today
Liked I asked it about its history
I swore it smiled for a second before it went on this day long story
About how it was here long before the man could say mom
Each flame represents a decade of heat that has yet to pass
And the middle being something that already happened
Cause we’re all living somewhere between the past and present
The sun knew why she smiled and I knew why I cried
Thousands of years for this day to happen and it’s already gone
I cried for my paper days and the sun who was still there
I still sat inside because sometimes the sun shined too brightly
And I wasn’t the one to make it stop but I was the one to dim it down

I read your word,
Opened your book
And tried to chisel it on my skull.

With fresh blood,
Pouring over my brows,
I walk around,
Fresh and anointed,
Scarred, but ok.

Dear love,
I don't need you to fix me,
I don't need you to stick around until a better version of me shows up,
I am who I am even on my worst days
So don't fill me with your empty flatteries,
I can take all your rough words
Even if you're words come like a sword,
As long as it's honest I'll take it,
As long as you stay I'll keep you.

I never knew how hypnotizing black and blue can be
My love
Chained to us I’ll make you understand
My love
We lose ourselves in broken skin, sore bones, and vacant eyes
My love
Don’t go spilling our secrets
My love
Don’t go spilling
My love
Don’t go
My love

They called us "free",
Something about the way we moved without gravity,
They called us "young",
Not for out youth but for our ability to push the boundaries,
They called us "lovely",
For all the ways we let our hearts be known
They called us "fearless",
Because heights aren't as scary when you live on top of the world,
They called us "theirs",
For all the ways they chase us and try to be like us.

Like the wolves to the moon,
Like the Fish to the sea,
Like the birds to the trees,
I too will be me.

Leak out and tell me your secrets,
Include me in you plans
and give me the keys to your treasure chest,
I want to be in your inner circle,
Let your mysteries unfold around me.