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Hello Daisies Jun 2023
I'd sit up all night
Waiting
Excited
Exhilarated
For the big event

Then it would come
And go
Come and go
Ever so
Then it's gone

I'd wait for so long
Then it's gone

As a child
I couldn't wait
To be 16
Sixteen came
And went
I can barely recall
The time spent
At sixteen

As a teen
As a child
As a young adult
It comes and goes
Comes and goes
Ever so
Til it's gone
Doesn't this feel wrong

I wait so long
For memories
That were once strong
To fade along
The shore line
Til they sink
Sink down
Never found
Again

Every memory
Every moment
Goes away
Fades away
We all try to ignore it
All try to stay
Okay
Like it's normal
To live this way
These short lives
Meaningless til we
All eventually die
And all we have
All we hold
Is memories
Waiting to unfold
Then fade
Fade
Come and go
Come and go
Til they're gone
Stardust
Crumbles
To just dust
The wind carries it away
Never even a last word to say
It's just gone
Gone

Maybe that's why we have
Songs
They stick with us
They stay with our hearts
We sing to them
We never forget
The melodies
That touch us so
Even if they fade
They still find a way
To stay

They come and go
Come and go
But the melody helps us
Remember it so
Ever so

It's all I hold onto
The melodies
Of all my memories
Because they are fading
Fading ever so
It hurts me to hold
What wants to be let go
It hurts
To see my life
Keep passing by
I have no power
To slow
Slow
Slow anything down
So I turn up the sound
Of the melodies
To keep me above
Ground

It all comes and goes
Comes and goes
Til it's gone
Ever so
But the melodies
That play in tune
With your soul
They hold you
They slow you
They show you
What you are missing
What you are grasping for
That's what the songs are for

Til it's all gone
I'll hold on
To every song.
  May 2023 Hello Daisies
guy scutellaro
unchained spirit

simple beauty

a flower

(as it was meant to be)
  May 2023 Hello Daisies
fray narte
She was an art,
but she wasn't the type
you'd find in museums
or the type that would
make you feel profound things
in your chest.

She was an art
tucked in hidden pockets
of a faded yellow dress.
She was an art,

slowly sketching herself
out of existence.
Why do I feel numb
Watching the world
Listless in sight
Because I only see it in black and white

Colors are washed out of my eyes
And every light in me has died
All I see are smiles as frowns
Because I only see them upside down

Love songs don’t have any meaning
For a person who is trapped in their mind
Love can attempt to come my way
And I will just glance and walk away

Storm clouds cries and fills the ocean
But my salty tears competes with emotion
Filling the ocean ten times till tomorrow
That the ocean will be overwhelmed with sorrow

In the end,
I try a superficial smile
And try to fool myself for awhile
But as much as I try
There is nothing left inside
Because everything in me
Can’t seem to come alive
For those who suffer from mental illness, I hear you and I know.  There is help and above all hope.  You are strong, keep fighting, you are worth it.
Hello Daisies May 2023
I'm angry
I'm so angry
I never let it out
I never try to shout
I only pout

I'm so full of rage
I've locked it in a cage
I never let it play
I never let it see day
It scares me
How far I could
Make you bleed

I want to hurt
Everyone
Who hurt
Me
Who took advantage
Of my childhood
Who abandoned
My sincerity
I would do anything
I would break my bones
For so many
But I can't even get
The bare minimum
I can't even get a penny
Of love
Of laughter
Of anything
But disaster
It makes me angry
Deep inside
But I let it hide

I've grown strong
So they say
Little do they know
I've always been
This way
Strong
Never breaking loose
Never trying the noose
I don't want it
I don't want strength
I want to be released
I want peace
I want
To be heard
I want
To understand
Why
Why
WHY
I would let myself
Die
To be there
To show
I really care

But nobody
Nobody
Would care
Care
Nobody's there
Nobody is
Ever
*******
There

I'm angry
I'm livid
I'm tired of living
A lie
That I'm fine
I'm sick inside
Don't ask me why
Like you can't imagine
*******
******* all
I'm tired of wanting
To bawl
My eyes out
*******
I hope you all
Burn
I hope you all turn
Your stomachs
Reading this
I hope I find
Bliss
I
Hope
I never miss
Any of you
I am so *******
Angry
I want to punish
All of you
For hurting me
As a child
As a teenager
As a women
As a human
I deserve
Better
I deserve
To let me loose
To let me choose
To be free
To be angry
To be understood
To be ******* heard
I deserve someone
Who cares
Not the ******* bare
Minimum
I'm tired of begging
getting nothing
I'm tired of hugging
All my enemies
Of being sweet
And loving
Of being mocked
And crying
I want revenge
I want to vent
I want to let
The cage open
I want to break glass
I want to see them
Fall on their ***
I want to smash
Every single
Throat
That ever
Let me go
To such dark
Places in my soul
There's such a hole
Of anger
Of danger
I can't let free
*** I would hurt
Everybody
I would hurt myself
It would never end
My hell

I just want to scream
Scream
Scream
******* SCREAM
I want someone to SEE
I WANT THEN TO HEAR
AND BEWARE
of me
Beware
If I ever dare
To release my
Inner terror

Be ******* ware
Hello Daisies May 2023
I had a dream
It's coming back in flashes
Making me cry
Making me wonder why

We were crayons
We were being used
By someone else
Acting out a scene
A broken romance scene
Of us
But everyone around
Was tired
Of us
I was blue wrapper
I was attached to you
You were red
You made me feel
Dead

I wouldn't
I wouldn't
Let go
I was blue
Attached to you
again
You were red
You were
So
Red

We were crayons
I think
Because of how childish
I was
To ever believe
Ever believe
I could trust anyone
Faithfully

I could ever trust
Anyone
With my innocence
We were crayons
In my mind
To represent
The childish fun
We had
The innocence
Of my mind
Thinking you'd never
Leave me behind

It's flashing
Flashing
Red
Flashing
Flashing
I'm blue
Still attached to you
Still attached
To
You
Everything
You do
I'm wrapped
Around
You
My whole life

Crumbling
Like a broken crayon
All my friends up
And ran
I have nobody
Alone
Like I used to be
A sad child
Crying out
For sincerity
Always blue
Leached onto
You
You took it all
I'm still wrapped
Around your burning
Flaming
Firey
Hell
I never fell
Off
I still cling

To everything
I'm missing
You stole it
You broke it

I'm just the wrapper
Trying to cling
To anything
nobody wants
Just the wrapper
They want the color
They want to smother
Their paper
In red
And leave the blue
The darkest of blues
To stew
Alone
Like the ocean
So much blue
so quiet
All alone

Always trying
To swim
My way
Back to you

the flashing
Flashing
Red
We had
I'm flashing
Flashing
blue
In my mind
Always still
Attached to
You
Hello Daisies May 2023
I can feel it
I can breathe it
You're right there
We're right there
In that moment
At that concert
Breathing that air
I can feel it
I can see it
I'm there
I'm there
The trumpets playing
The music swaying
I'm there
I'm there
You're there
You're there

I can feel it
I can see it
I can breathe it
That moment
I'm there
We're outside
The gas station
I give you a stare
I remember it
I'm there
Telling myself
You're forever
I feel it
In my heart
It's so *******
Sharp

You're my muse
You're my pain
I forget sometimes
How sick I really am
Til I let you in
I purposely let you
Win
I let it in with a grin
The pain
The strain
I can feel my heart actually
Crawl into a ball
As I remember it all
As if I was there
Like I almost enjoy it
You were the most real thing
I ever felt
It was amazing
Now it's
Blazing
Pain
In every way

You're my muse
You're my cue
To the deepest
Darkest parts
Of living
I can feel you
Breathing
In my heart
Falling apart
Have you ever
Cried so hard
You puked
Have you ever felt so hard
You were in that scene
Again
Reliving it all
With that friend
Terrorized
By the size
Of pain
Terrorized by
The love
Of pain
How I love
To regain
You

I'm sick
I'm sick
It's a conflict
I hate it
I hate it
Yet I relive it
With the sound of trumpets
I let it in
I let it win
You're my muse
You're my cue
To hurt

Is it really my fault
Can I really ask for help
How can I ever begin to explain
When I can relive the pain
Because the air outside
Reminds me of you
The air outside
The way it breathes against my skin
The way the warm meets the cold
The way the lights shimmer
The way
It hits my face
The warm yet brisk night
Against the light
Reminds me of you
Standing there
Running to me
Looking across at me
Standing next to me
In that line
On that late night
Excited for the concert
Eager for the moment
I'm there
I'm there
You're right there
In that warm air
Forgetting my keys from the car
Looking at the building from afar
I'm there I'm there
I can feel you in my air
Every sound
Every move
Every breathe
Every word spoken
Is mute
Yet I can feel
What I felt
It makes my stomach
Melt
It makes my stomach
Turn
It makes me yearn
For something
A fix
For more
So I go to score
I put the trumpets back on
listen to that song
Now I'm really there
And you are everywhere
The real world is gone
I don't care
Because I'm there
I'm there
With you
I want to puke
From the pain
So let me regain
My thoughts
Let me go deeper
Into the pain

The air
The way the lights glow
In the night
That makes it feel
As if not real
All the memories flood
At once
With you
In this weather tonight
I can't begin
To get better
If I can relive
Your every letter
From the air
On a random
Summer night
It's not fair
It's not fair

I know I'm sick
But how can I begin
To get better
When I want to die
From the pain
But I love to relive
The pain
At the same time
All because of one trumpet
One beautiful night

How can I
How
Tell me
Why I'm there
Right now
Right now
With you
Let me out
Or don't
Idk anymore

I do know
You're there
And you're smiling
But here I am
I'm crying
It's not
Fair
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