Feelings of bliss escape like rats scurrying
Across a floor littered with fragments of emotion,
The rodents dinner.
Among these crumbs lie memories of before.
Sadness, love, anger, angst along with many more.
Pieces of a past so dark it blocked out light.
A past so cancerous it killed God.
A past so heavy it crushed Hercules.
A past so damming that he forgot it all.

Stinging is this feeling
Deep within my heart
The scabs they keep on peeling
My deeds, I've played my part.

Yet it was the end
When you said no more
Without hitting send
My heart, hurt to core.

Every now and then
When I reflect on the past
I look at my greatest sin
The first and the last.

I can't imagine what I put you through
I wish only that it all wasn't true
I miss all the love and the fun
For I'm truly sorry for all that I've done

I still see your deep blue eyes
Behind the glaze
Yet when they gaze
I sit in full amaze
Emotionless you stare
As if without a care

Like glowing torches
Your eyes burn through me
Is it me you're looking at
Or the me I used to be

I still see your deep blue eyes
Behind the glaze.

I wish I wasn't human.
Most our lives
Are filled with immense sadness.
Some say blessing,
I say curse.

Please God forgive my troubled mind
I wish that I could rewind time
To long ago; I loved my life
Now engulfed in lonesome strife
Memories of wonderous fun
Endless days spent in sun
I hate my life and how little I've done
I toss and turn and want to run
Far, far away from those held dear
And end it all ere a single tear

And in my darkest times,
You told me you loved me.
Now in my darkest times,
Pretend you cannot see

Drive far away from home
Shed tears for my old strife
Shave head, start a new life
Never remember you
Always forgotten too
Erase your favorite song
Still I ask, "Is it wrong?"