don’t pretend you can’t feel my heart
pounding through my shirt.
don’t pretend like you don’t know that
I tremble every time you’re near me.

I pretend that you’re just a friend
but you’re the ecstasy that runs
through my veins.
and I can’t pretend that
I don’t love you.

You taught me to dance in the storm
even when I couldn’t feel sunshine approaching
and in the chaos of my heart,
You calmed the waves within.
and I kept dancing wildly with You beside me.

I painted my love for You on a page
each word unraveling
the beauty of Your character.
each letter carefully orchestrating the
promise You made.

You painted Your love for me on a cross
each nail revealing
the depths of Your love.
and I know You are for me.
Your promise redeemed me
even in my darkest hour.

Forever it will be
You and me.

Your lips are still your lips
And your eyes are still your eyes,
Burning with desire from the moment I passed
You on that dimly lit street in September.
All I could think was:
“I love you.”

my soul almost died today
but He pulled me back
and surrounded me with grace.
He called me his daughter
and for the first time,
I felt safe.
loved.
wanted.

Dear God,

please keep my head above water,
even when I feel like drowning,
I know your hands are guiding the waves.

I wonder what it would be like to die for ten minutes.
for ten minutes, to be at peace.
to be free from the chaos.
for ten minutes, I wonder what I would miss in life
wondering if anyone would even care if
I was gone.

for ten minutes.