As I lay here all alone again,
I ask God why couldn't he take me instead?
Why must I endure such pain?
Was it because of something I did or something I said?
Why do I have to be the one all alone inside my head?
I look both ways and still I'm all alone in my bed.
As night comes all I feel is dread.
Not wanting to move ahead.
I lay here,
I plead,
I beg.
Nothing ever happens, just the lonely tears I shed.
All the memories I wish I'd forget.
All the spurious love I've grown to regret.
How could I have been so mislead?
All alone I cry.
All alone again.

Oh no, what's that?!
It comes and goes and then comes right back.
The tension it builds as I stand guard aiming my shields.
But wait they're gone!
Oh ****, something's wrong!
I'm searching as it continues lurking.
I'm open, I'm game,
When did it all change?!
Oh yea, that's right it came with new life.
It's now how I live.
I guess I'm just scared.
It's new, it's real....
I guess I'll just FEEL!

My hearts undone,
one by one,
plucked away until they're gone.
I can't pretend, I'm going in
mind unwind oblivion.
Forced by fate, I sit and wait
through the motions of each day.
The hope it fades, frustration rage
Long haul for the pearly gates.
Makeshift breath is put to rest,
it's what they call the life of test.