with my head between my arms
and people screamin' all around
tryin' not to **** somebody
like a bored fish I'm out of breath
oh god, why did you make me..
and make me hate everybody ?
**** me already
I'm dead with feeling dread
and I can't relate to anybody
or anything that comes my way
and whatever I like goes away
so far away
and I'm just lost in my days
pretending to be in love with dark
fading and escaping
into a void every hour
with every scar that I'm keepin'
I'm afraid to share
what I've been dreamin'
if I pray would I be spared
can I leave them behind
do you go to hell for
thoughts that are stuck in your mind ?
caught this time
I swear I'll be a good kid next rhyme
when is it enough ?
to stop lying
does it matter when I'm crying,
will that save me ?
will that save me from trying
I'm so tired
of this sun shining all the time
can I paint it black
with sulphur and smoke
bleach and choke it
until it is fine
like I am
when they ask me my name
I wish I could drink all the rain
so they'll know my thirst
flood them with my pain
so they'll realise my hurt
look, a flower in the dirt
and they keep repeatin'
how they saw it first
the flower in the dirt
so why don't you pick it up ?
A chaotic mind is wonderful when it's about to rain.