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Oct 2014 · 1.1k
Missed Connections
Kat Luebke Oct 2014
I did not invite you into my life.
You waltzed in on your own accord.
Stealing my breath; along with my heart.
You had kissed away my innocence then quickly vanished without a trace.
I never asked for you to love me.
I only wanted you to stay.
Kat Luebke Oct 2014
if only you knew, what kind of shape you left me in
a body wasted away to nothing.
nothing but an empty shell,
filled with heartache and sorrow.
ultimately a self-destructive mess
left to fend hopelessly on her own.
you had always said you needed me
time after time, night after night.
you made me blind
not realizing the extent of how I had come to depend on you
I believed you
you had once said you needed me, to survive.
but now that you are gone
I am the one who needs you
I am the one close to pulling the trigger.
you are the one with light in your eyes
and another in your bed.
Kat Luebke Oct 2014
I love you more than anything and it terrifies me.
It scares me to the point that I can hardly talk about it;
hardly think about it with out feeling insane.
The way I feel about you is crazy in itself.
Beautiful yet deadly, like the ocean.
You are like a tidal wave that has swept me off my feet
continuously pulling me farther into the middle of the sea
all the while I struggle to keep my head above water and catch my breathe.
I struggle because I'm too fearful to just let go.
Scared to sink and let myself drown.
Afraid to allow myself to become overwhelmed,
be completely and utterly consumed by all that you are.
Become vulnerable.
Worried that if I were to allow myself to drown in you,
I would just end up being washed upon a different shore someday.
Cold and gasping for air
because you had left me breathless
while I was being carried by the constant, indecisive sway of your waves.
Kat Luebke Oct 2014
Does your bed ever not feel like your own?
It is the way the sheets feel as they slide against your skin
Your blanket, though once resembled a warm safe place, now slowly suffocating you
with the scent of a far away lover
The one who had kissed you goodnight with a false 'I love you", on their lips,
then vanished without out a trace
before you could even catch your breath
They were the one could fill you with such an incredible sense of  hope;
yet make you want to **** yourself in the same moment.

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