now i can sleep
much much better
knowing that
those red lips
he refused to kiss
were the same lips
that told me
to '*******.'

I feel like death is calling me;
I find comfort in the thought.
But if I slit these ******* wrists,
would Mother be distraught?

These winds of time
weren't on my side
you took me by the hand

Leading me away from who I was
leaving footprints
in the sand

A pretty life I left behind
now a dark hole I am in
it feels like the emptiness
has stolen me from my skin

I said I'd see her later
so she'd think it wasn't planned
But all along I had the pills
gripped tightly in my hand

They all know you
Better than I ever could
They say you hid your feelings
Beneath a heavy hood

They say the rope took you
Or was it you who took the rope
As a child I'd sit at home
All I could do was hope

She says you left by your own accord
She screams it time and again
It is like your rope left her mind
Coated in red wine stains

When you left he came along
A temper in his fists
Like the thunder rumbled in his voice
And often she'd assist

He stepped into my darkness,

and started turning on the lights.

Then asked if all these cobwebs

were the reason for my plight.


I, with squinted eyes,

not accustomed to the glow

said, “these cobwebs are a part of me,

but I’m not ready for them to show.”

“Within them are my secrets,

I used to hide them on the shelf,

Tucked away within my mind,

I even kept them from myself”


Then I panicked at the thought,

Of another standing in this room.

So I pushed him toward the door,

And quickly ran to get the broom.


“No reason to fear,” he said,

“I have cobwebs too”

Then he grabbed my shaking hand and said,

“In fact I’ll share mine with you.”


So he showed me his collection

And it looked a lot like mine

Then he pointed out the differences

And a “No Trespassing” sign.


Suddenly he smiled,

started tearing down the wall.

“There’s no need for two

when we could share it all!”


They told me that love

would fly me away from the gloom,

but I never did feel comfort

until I shared my room with you.