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Ｙｏｕｌｌｎｅｖｅｒｕｎｄｅｒｓｔａｎｄ ｍｅ

He doesn't burn photographs
He doesn't join therapy sessions
He doesn't smoke too many cigarettes
Nor he drown himself into alcohol
He scratches his wounds daily
And never let them heal
He doesn't try to get rid of the pain
Instead he let it grow on him
He waters the seed of sorrow with his tears
He feeds it with the manure of old memories
He takes it to sleep with him
And nurtures it in himself
Till the moment when every single drop of his blood gets replaced by this pain
Until his fragile heart can bear no more
And his soul starts overflowing with emotions
That's when he dip his pen into this pain
And empty his heart on a piece of paper
He bares his soul for us to feel
He creates poetry that the world would cherish for centuries to come

To be human,
Means to Win,
Only to loose.

never to deep
never enough to die
but enough to feel the pain;
enough to scream inside

I want to stab my chest.
let the pressure hiss out like steam.
It’s lived here too long,

The same pressure
I've felt lying in this same bed,
staring through this same window,
with these same thoughts
in this same body
no matter how many times I beg it to leave

I want to stab my chest.
Cut out the rot of
never good enough,
of sorry for existing,
of always the one who ruins everything.

I want it gone
The weight.
The silence.
The drowning
The constant need to earn my right to breathe.

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sunk.

But I don't stab.
I just lie here
again
and the window doesn’t say a thing.

I love you,
The way Icarus loved the sun
To close,
Too much.

I wouldn’t mind if it killed  me,
For in my eyes,
There is no tragedy in burning for you.

Let the flames kiss my skin,
Let the light blind me whole.
If loving you means ruin,
Then ruin is the sweetest fate I know.

Just like Icarus,
I’d die for you,
I’d abandon all,
Just for you

You touched me,
and I remembered how stars bleed
before they die.