I’m searching
for words.

Words
explaining me.

Me
and those feelings.

Feelings
of love and fear.

Fear
of losing you.

You,
whom I adore.

Adore
with all I have.

i feel sick today
not cold chills
or a runny nose
not body aches
or a sore throat

i feel sick today
no not in that way
it's my mind, not my body
that is beginning to stray

i feel sick today
but i can't describe it
it's cloudy for some reason
i don't recognize it

i feel sick today
but tomorrow will be better
this just happens sometimes
i’m sure it won't be forever

I'm smart enough to admit I don't know everything
But foolish enough to forget everything I know

thank god i can’t write good poetry
the best poetry comes from pain and hurt if you ask me
so although i can’t write like i used to
at least it means i’m doing alright