Sleepy eyes,
drenched with
the hues of orange the sky made.
Silent words,
floating as passersby
like cars on a free way.
Smiles
that could equal the beauty
of the sunset.

You are beautiful
like a sunset.

Blue skies
Gleaming eyes
Turbulent emotions

You answered my text today
for the first time in a week
now I'm smiling,
but I know it won't last long.

I'm shaking
anxiety through the roof
everything is spinning.
Suddenly I can feel it
how I used to feel
around you
and now tears streak my face
like wiping off water paint on a towel.

My skin is crawling
every time I hear it
the text tone,
for just a moment.
It all stops,
and it feels safe again.

Eyes like the bright stars
Smile just as iridescent
You are perfection

Laying on my bed
music blaring
a slight bzzz from my record
there is an image in my head.

Standing on the top of a building
looking down
watching people go past
wondering what they're doing.
Now I'm crying and smiling
"This is it."
I can't do it though
and that is the worst pain ever.

I feel
in the great divide
of life and death.
You'll be there first,
and that scares me.
That I will be alone
scared
no advice
your face pasted to
a stupid website
that doesn't matter
people pretend
like you were perfect,
but we know.
You weren't,
but you loved
and now
I'm crying.

Hoping to die first,
life *****
I know.
To say otherwise would be
ignorant.
However
thinking of
the picture
your coffin
the clothing
your eyes closed
and my hands on yours clasping.
It
makes me
weak.

Bone white skin
a lifeless blue lips
contrasted by
gorgeous locks of heaven
and a black suit.
My oily skin
holding tightly to yours
my head screaming
for you to wake up.
Hoping that
the golden chariot
was your ride to
where ever you are,
and that one day.
I'll be holding your hand.

I love you,
and it scares me to
death.

Without you
Life is a pale gray
Covered in shades of
Black and white.
Music isn't music anymore,
Books aren't books,
Art is just pictures
Without meaning.

When there was an us.
Everything was happy and rainbows.

I miss you.

I love you
three words said too much
but never enough.