Ruler of water
Walking on air
Antisocial Alien
She'll tell you to grow a pair

Not of this planet
She's ready to leave
Bored with human nature
Atmosphere hard to breath

Extraterrestrial
Don't touch her, she's cold
Unresponsive emotions
Can't fit in your mould

Ruler of water
Floating on air
Riddled with anxiety
Life just isn't fair

A Queen, individual
Heart racing, can't breathe
She knows what she can be
She just wants to leave

Anxious Aquarius
Lady of air
Can't breath your atmosphere
And you can't reach her
Hemosphere

Brave
And shaking
And strong
And quaking

I fool myself
Late at night that is
With fantastical scenoirios
Of what may be

Yes
Yes I see
Late at night
Who I want to be

A version of myself
Trapped inside
My head
A fantastical version

A prototype
A clone
An upgrade
Trapped

Picturing confident conversation
Loose chest breathing easily
Fantastical
It feels fantastical

Then I wake up
The feeling gone
The fantastical locked up again
In my tight chest

Anxious and hard to breath
My tight chest and immovable mind
A constant cage
For that fantastical me

All day I think
How different every situation
Would be
With fantastical me

She screams from inside
The tight chest, running mind cage
I hear her scream
She is me

Well a version of me
No one will ever see
We argue all day
But she never wins the fight
She's only allowed to dream at night.

Alone
alone next to you
my insides screaming
notice me senpai

Anxious to reach out
reach
stretch
While you ignore me

Your whole Ora screams at me
screams you deserve this
To be ingnored
on a spiritual level

Anxious
Doesn't always show
dramatically, no
sometimes

Oh sometimes
I scream on the inside
I cry
Ripping at the wallpaper of my mind

Unlike you
I wish I could
So easily
Switch off.

Stitch off
switch off
switch off
so easily

I can't
I know I can't
Yet I want
and I yearn

Another creative torture
For my mind
my mind
this thing inside

My heart
it really has strings
I feel them pulling
Me apart, that is

I could almost laugh
Silly silly.
But I don't
I think

It's the worst medicine
Really
thinking, that is
it's the worst

For most it's helpful
For me, it's a *****
I almost laughed again
as I dig my mind-hole

Deeper
Deeper still
how deep into my mind might I dig...
Deeper still

Some people sleep deep
I dig
Deeper still
as deep as my endless mind.

Queen of passion
Broken through love
She who gives all
Surely loses it all

Passions burning flame
No other flame may withstand
Burning out
Flame versus flame

Sad socrpio
You let a dull match in
Twig with no spark
Stealing your fire
Dulling her shine

Sad Scorpio, you know
Flame dulled
Stolen fire, a burning rage
Sad scorpio

Broken by a dull stick
Dull stick
Calls you dull

Sad Scorpio
Sad, sad Scorpio
Wishing to burn
She has been robbed

Flame stolen
Flame that once burned
All who challenged

Sad Scorpio
Steal your flame back
No.
You let him burn

He won't reignite your flame
No.
He burns you
Burns you up
Yet you stay, sad Scorpio

Says he is the only one
Who will keep you warm
No.
He burns you

Sad Scorpio
Steal your flane
Let him dwindle
Shine again

Asleep.  
No
I try to sleep
With my hands close to me

Anti social, maybe?
Fear of intimacy, maybe?
No
Not really

I sleep with my hands close to me
The physical action
Of crawling inside myself
Crawling inside myself

As if I will be safe there
Within myself
Crawling inside myself
Within myself

If I could
I'd rip my chest open
And crawl
Further inside myself

As if I'd be safe there
As if my hands
Inside my chest
Could grab my heart

Slow it down
Inside myself
Or
Within myself

Would I find
my own hands there
Already
Inside myself

Forcing my heart
To beat this uncontrollable ryhthm
That makes me
Crawl

Inside myself
I can't seem to fix
What's broken
Within myself

Even if I could crawl inside myself
I know
I know
It won't get better

Fool myself into thinking it's better
For myself
Broken, inside
And out

It's not safe
Inside myself
I know within myself
I have to get out myself...