I've gone the distance
So much has changed
But I just can't turn back time
Can't rewind the clock
or bring back what was mine
Time has changed and things have faded
Those times really underrated
But I can't go back
I can't rewind
All I can do is remember
Before the memories fade with time
Then they will go
Like sand in the glass
One speck lost in the sea
Time to turn and start a new
Before The hourglass breaks
And we lose all the memories

I saw you in the water
I wonder if you'll make me drown
You pulled me in and held me close
Like no one has ever held me before
I enjoyed the embrace, even if it would be the last
Making me forget how to swim
That's a drone in your Waters
The warmth of the embrace
The cold that starts to set in
I feel like I'm drowning
All the air has left my lungs
What am I to do
I can't fight it
I'm too far from the surface
The only one at around
the one who sunk me down
Do I deserve it
Is this my fault
Questions you ask yourself
in the final moment
Was anything truly worth it

My blood is like a golden drug
full of temptation for the sinning ******
forever wanting more
Stuck by my side like a thorn
forever dripping in sweet agony
as I watch, you get hooked on me
drinking the blood like water
forever craving more
ever ravenous and full of lust

Your the reason happy family's make me cry
You had no love for me
It was all laced with poison and lies
Making me rethink any happy memories
Realizing how fake they were
You filled my childhood with lies and hatred
Only made me feel sadness and despair
Made me believe I was nothing
Just a disappointment
Not someone worth loving
Someone who would never be good enough
That deserved to be beat
I remember you bragging about it
You were laughing and telling your friends
how you put me in my place
Like it was an accomplishment
The fact you chased me when I tried to run
Pinned me down
And just kept swinging
Till I could barely breathe
I still remember the screaming
How much my head pounded after 
I could barely stand as I dragged myself to my room
Everything stayed spinning
I was nauseous for days
But my hair was so thick you couldn't see the bruises
And the blood washed away 
I think it was summer so no one could have noticed
I tried telling family, they just said it was discipline
I should quit winning, it's not like I was actually beat....
One one who did believe me told me to shut up
At least I was lucky to still have a mother....

I feel the bones
cracking in my toes
every thing aches
the joints are stiff and sore
hurts so much it's hard to ignore
I just want to curl up on the floor
just stop the cold from creeping in
I feel the icy chill on my skin
my bones ache
my skin is flushed
as the cold seeps in
nipping at my warmth
draining my energy
why did you have to set so soon
it to early for these low numbers
too early to freeze
but you're never ready
no matter how much you prepare
the cold will always bite
and slowly eat you away

Something has been eating me alive
and it's coming from within
when did it truly begin
when did it start eating away
what's the cause of this decay
my insides are in disarray
out of place
some things missing
slowly filling with the void
an empty replacement
fulling with darkness
it won't stop spreading
is it truly from within
or did you infect me
pierce me with your toxin
to slowly eat away
making me useless
so I can't fight your words
your toxic hate
breaking me down
piece by piece
destroying who I was
and what I could be
but your gone
I have begun to heal
but it's hard to replace what you've taken
what you destroyed
sometimes I can still taste your poison
I know ill never forget
what you did
the pain I felt
but I can be better
I WILL be better
I can make it out alive
I can heal
no matter how hard you tried
I'm still alive