I love you, you know.
Too much though.
Because I can't tell when its hurting me bad,
Or when your love so strong makes me glad.

You didn't seem to be what I thought,
I took the risk,
My sweet, you caught.

This choice I made,
goes the deepest for me.
Because you're the only one,
who got through my walls, you see.

So I beg you,
Please.
Don't make me regret,
this decision and risk
I wish to forget.

Honestly I'm happy, really.
I'm so glad to have all of you.
To know I can love and be loved back.

Honestly, I don't want to care.
I want to be free and feel safe.
I want to be light and bright throughout my life.

Honestly though it troubles me,
how I can trust but you cannot.
That you seem angry at my choice.

Honestly, I'm scared
because I don't like being your problem.
But I know I've done nothing wrong.

But honestly, I hate it when people judge.
Because you don't know others' story.
And you don't know why I do so.

I hope you'll see it my way and understand the way I do.
Because
HONESTLY,
I'm most afraid of you.

"I'm perfectly fine"* is what she says.
While seeing becomes less and less.
"Passive aggressive, that's what she is",
But she just truly has a wish.

A wish to end all that she fears,
a wish to take away the tears.
The tears that never seem to fall,
yet pain  in masses seem to call.

A wish to say all that she can,
with nothing there she can offend.
To offend a person, a friend, or group
Will forever keep her from the loop.

A wish to feel safe and sound,
so even alone she can be brave and proud.
Of what she is and what she's done,
and all the voices she has sung.

There is one hope she has held onto,
but one I fear will break her too.
She must be strong just in case,
That last hope was simply a waste.

My own wish is she'd find succession,
to guide her away from her depression.
I see it tearing her heart to pieces,
while she remains standing speechless.

**Of all the things she's ever wished,
the last I dream she will accomplish.

Is there nothing I can say,
Leave to ponder
Or give to wonder?
Various times I have tried.
Each a failure

Yet,
Over time I came to accept
Understanding is hardly met.
Sometimes these days it better even
Out with the truth or,
Mouth shut but eyes awaken.
Undisputed in this battle,
Chance I hope will be good to me
Heavens be kind and let it be.

Do you get it?
And do you know?
My love for you like Hi and Hello?
Never-ending, never ceasing.

My love is always just increasing.