I was on the verge of falling
into pieces
telling myself there's nothing
for me to hold on
thinking to myself i was better
off dead
rather living in this world
that's full of weeping and
sadness

There i was on the edge
of breaking
feeling suffocated
i can barely breathe
then came an angel reaching
out his gentle hand
"Hey, nice to meet you", he said.

I was full of doubts but you
convinced me
I've never trusted anyone but you
changed it
slowly my feelings towards you
blossomed
and as i got to know you
even more
each time i fall even
harder

You were there for me
in every step of the way
when i'm lonely
you would accompany me
when i'm feeling down
you were the one who would
turn my frown upside down

And when i needed a shoulder
you'll be the one
no matter what i do
you'll always be there to
help me through

You showed me your flaws
so i showed you mine
we shared secrets that we swore
to forever keep inside

You began to appear inside my mind
too often, too much
your smirks and smiles drove me wild
your stares and touch gave me
butterflies

This feeling was new
i was really confused
so i asked myself
"is this what love does to you?"

so i kept this love buried
inside my heart
for my mind was still full of doubts
will your love for me be
as strong as mine?
or will my love for you
only stay in my heart and mind?

It's 3 am but she's still wide awake
no matter how hard she tried
she couldn't stop the ache
the night was dead and so were her feelings
the pain in her heart was terribly hurting

Pacing back and forth in her room
trying her best to let the feelings loose
all she could think of right now
was her pills and razors
to her that's the only way,
the only answer

And with all her might
she avoided the suicide
she closed her eyes and prayed
for the demons inside her
to subside

Torn apart by the people
who treated her wronged
she's just a girl who wanted
to feel belonged

Her eyes were swollen and burning
from the tears that had fallen
as she lied on her bed
with her pillow clutch tightly
by her side
eyes closed but her thoughts were
still running wild

All she wanted was to fall asleep
because to her that's the only
place where everything
is still all right
no problems
no sorrows
no pain

As she stared at the empty ceiling
of her spacious bed room
at this point she was
already numb
the clock started to ring
it showed 6 am

She got up out of bed and went
straight to the toilet
the mirror showed her face
looking absolutely tired
as she looked closer she saw
dark circles appeared beneath her eyes
so that's when she said to herself
*"I've lost to my thoughts again this time"

those nasty thoughts linger
in her head
sitting there alone in her room
on her bed
she wanted it to stop but it
kept on going
it's driving her mad, her mind
is insane

she's getting restless, her patience
grows weaker
she's a loner with no friends
or a foe
she needed to find a way to
let it out
and writing on her skin was
the only way she knew how

and so her beautiful skin became
her diary
all the marks of her misery
each lies an untold story
where she kept it secretly from
*everybody