Bells are ringing
Candles are lit
Santa Claus granted my wish
I can spend today just with you

You laughed,
"This is silly!"
As two of us decorate our room
Let's celebrate every year from now on

This town, only ours
Let's shine our light of love
I can deliver my every thoughts
You have granted my every wish

Merry christmas and...
Will you marry me?

I want to **** myself so badly,
Yet I don't have the courage to do it.
I want to destroy myself so badly,
Yet I don't have the courage to do drugs or smokes

Why?
Am I serious on wanting to destroy myself?
Am I just bluffing?
Am I too coward?

Drugs can destroy me for sure
With this frail body
Smokes can also destroy me for sure
With this frail heart and lungs

But why?
Why I can't do it?
It's as if I want my body
To rot naturally.

Boring
Annoying
Broken
Forgotten
Denied
Withered


....that's me.

As blood flows out from my wrist
A ****** silhouettes appears
"Doesn't it feel better this way?
No one will judge you"

There is no wrong grammar
There is no wrong structure
There is no wrong word
Because it needs no word

There is nothing wrong
You hurt no one except yourself
Let the blood flows
As you let those feelings out

No need to show the world
No need to seek attention
Just blame yourself
Just **** yourself

I hope that one day, mom will stop scolding me
I hope that one day, mom will stop telling me to do stuff I don't like
I hope that one day, mom won't mind if I stay in my room
I hope that one day, mom will let me live my own life

I hope that one day, mom won't complain about me
I hope that one day, mom will appreciate my efforts
I hope that one day, mom will not put me down for those
I hope that one day, mom will say i'm a good girl even if it's only once

I hope that one day, mom will see me as her daughter
I hope that one day, mom will regret all she did
I hope that one day, mom will realize that i'm not perfect
I hope that one day, mom will miss me when she can't see me anymore.

A sneaky rat and a little gecko
Both lived in a family house
The little gecko always greeted the family
The sneaky rat always stole their food

The family loved the little gecko
Because it was cute and kind
The family hated the sneaky rat
Because it kept creating a mess

They set a trap for the rat
Hoping that they could get rid of it
But the sneaky rat was clever
And told the gecko to get the food from the trap

The little, innocent gecko stepped on the trap
And the sneaky rat ran away
Even the family couldn't help the little gecko
Now it is trapped there forever.

I like to write
Plans, stories, everything
I like fancy notebooks
I like blank paper

I went to a bookstore and saw a notebook
It had the word "Positive" on its cover
In which I thought I could write my sadness
Such that I could become more positive

HEY, YOU'RE WASTING MONEY AGAIN!!!
B-but it may help me!!!
ARE YOU EVEN MOVED BY THIS FAKE MOTIVATION?!
Well, I could try...

YOU WILL WRITE NONSENSE AGAIN
I'm trying not to...
JUST STOP WRITING
.........