lately i've been scared
worried the darkness will last
but i hope i'm wrong

i feel powerless
so backed into a corner
but i hope i'm wrong

i feel judging eyes
like i'm not just projecting
but i hope i'm wrong

i think i see it
they wince when my mouth opens
but i hope i'm wrong

i feel unwanted
it's unlucky to know me
but i hope i'm wrong

unhelpful and shamed
no one is glad i'm here, right?
i just hope i'm wrong

only by working—
my body, my only strength
my hands hold children
but my mind is too broken
prove to me i'm wrong

Inefficient love
Subpar communication
Almost good enough
Almost worth listening to
If you say nothing
You confirm it with silence
But if you argue
Please bring some more evidence
I'm trying to hope
That this self-talk's distorted
I'm sorry my pain
Is underreported
If nobody cared
Then surely I'd be alone
And not surrounded
By those who want to love me—
But I don't know how
To feel the love that they show.
I shrink back, I hide,
Because it hurts me sometimes.
These are all my thoughts
They feel so true in my mind.
But I really hope I'm wrong.

Here I go, head first
Jumping and not being pushed
Into the deep end.

the days grow shorter
the nights bring the need for these
artificial lights

Life is a segway
If you let God handle it
It balances out.

Mountains or valleys
Quick heartbeats or slow exhales
Who are you to me?

Perhaps it is time.
I'll go back and say hello,
And maybe they'll smile.

Something about her
Shines without even trying
And everyone sees.

rock shreds my heartstrings
until it hurts, and i heal—
the right way this time.

If I repeat you,
Playing you endlessly here,
Will you stay with me?

So much commotion
Takes over my tired brain
Can I just sit still?