I've poisoned myself today
Slipped into bad ways
Slid a cigarette between my lips
Fired up, inhaled and let the smoke join my past.
They say you should never go back
It's true
Memories resurface as you remember
The fog of time is transformed into cigarette smoke
You feel weak, you've regressed ,you've failed to repress
You are not who you were
You are now
Now is all you are.

Failed opportunities , failed declarations
Failed love, failed dancing in the rain.
What you have now is what you chose
Choose wisely, regret and failure bring the now.