"disapeared" poems
bout tree years ago
me planted me seed in me wife
me wife looked like a a tird babylon
had grown on er tomach
bout a year ago
she **** out a rastafarian mon
and de babylon disapeared
me say me tink es ugly
how should me give em away
me tink me give em back to jah
me gona leave im in da cah
and bake em like da ganga
ee almost went back to jah
me wife say wat was u tinkin
me say me didnt no
she say how me be so dum
me say me smoke a ton
she say ow much is dat
me say it be alot
she say ow much is alot
"like, dis much"
(me old out me hands to show)
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 10:57 PM UTC
His Angel came flying downand landed right in front of me
He put his arms around me he looked DEEP into
my eyes and he said "I am leaving you,
I hope the lessons of our past lives can sustain you"
through the coming tough times.And just with that my Angel
flew up up above and he disapeared.
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Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 2:51 AM UTC
last night i had a Dream
i was at an intersection
both roads looked the same
standing on one road my mother
one the other myself only older
my mom spoke softly
"honey you need to stop wasting your time
forget music forget painting an poetry
that wont get you anywhere go to college
be a doctor or a lawyer make lots and lots of money
youll be happy"
sounded tempting
i started walking that way
then my future self spoke
"you need to do what makes you happy what you love
dont work a job just for money do it for pleasure
continue to paint continue to play music
it will be hard at first you will disopoint some people in the end
it pays off youll make money off your painting
you can be in a succesful band
learning from from every obsticle you face"
it was then i had to decide
i aplogized to my mother i told her if she loved me
she support me
"ok" she said
the future me disapeared as i ran down his road
creating my life ahead
im not sure what happened next
i woke up at that point
i guess thats where i decide
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 2:40 PM UTC
My delicate peace has been shattered
While my heart went on a rollarcoaster trip and got completly battered
I cannot sleep at the thought of missing you
Or of the thought of the secrets that I kept turned to be true
Sleep has disapeared
Who thought I got bored
They tend to talk badly
Too bad they all look to each other so sadly
The words are haunting me again
I just need to stop my brain
Its not as easy as it looks to no longer dream
When the nightmares get so extreme
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC
The relief of my brother as he walked into the sea caught my attention.
I could percieve a storm of feelings inside him.
His golden eyes reflected freedom, as he disapeared into the blue intensity of the ocean.
I remember how we used to be always together,
climbing up our tree where we felt untouched by reality,
as if it was banned from our minds.
I will always wonder if he grew weaker or stronger.
But I do know I haven't lost him,
he has just been transformed into beautiful memories
that keep me from rushing into the emptiness of the sea.
Aug 3, 2013
Aug 3, 2013 at 10:17 PM UTC
Departed is my soul
from its body,
undersand I do not......
Lost I am
not knowing my true tradition
confused I am about my genes
well,im made of genes of two people
yet im only sure about one person.
Abandoned I have been.....
your presence I do not know
your voice I cant trace
hence I only heard it then and you disapeared
even your ****** appearance I can not spot
painfull it gets for every reason
in every season. Never do I get that conditional love
since your presence lacks at every condition
pity I cried till my eyes fell off
searched everywhere I did till I felt
There is no use
your love is everything I've ever crave for
But the indefinable opposite is all I've ever got
short of words I am
Describe you I can not
cause I know nothing about you
fatherless I feel
yet I have a father
even though everything proves I'm fatherless
I still do have a father
Little is my faith
that ill ever know you
im lost and you know it
but never do you try to find me
even though you brought me into this world
I still feel im in a different world from yours
im lost and you.......
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 5:17 PM UTC
and if you should have it
if the power was in your reach
if selfishness could speak
you would want to leave me in one peice
while the other million have disapeared
left with so little of myself
you would have destroyed me
if it was in you power
if it was in your reach
I smiled to you
and you smiled back to me
the parted lips that hurt the heart
of so many before us
hunderds and hundreds of years before us
you would have fed me to the desert
if it was up to you
you would have sent me to the sun
you would have let me melt
oh there was so many things you would do to me
if it were up to you
you would have put me in yours hands
and crush the glass that I have given you
with me inside your fingerprints
if it was up to you
if it was in your reach
you would have me sit spiritually
on top of your eyelids as I cry
every morning
and every night
your personal sad porcelain doll
expressing herself to you
in one way
pain.
and if it were up to me
I would have loved you very deeply
Dec 5, 2010
Dec 5, 2010 at 5:05 PM UTC
Its funny how my hand fitted perfectly into yours
Funny that you'd wait for me by the school doors
Funny that you'd attack me with your little kisses
Funny that you'd also want us to be mr and mrs
Whats more funny is your hands have disapeared
That you're not at the dooring waiting, thats weird
More funny that I've no lipstick stains on my cheek
Hilarious its that you're miss popular and I am a freak
Feb 5, 2017
Feb 5, 2017 at 3:28 AM UTC
**Sometimes our fairy,
Felt her magic had gone,
The sunshine was dark.
She thought her magic,
Had disapeared-just vanished,
Into a nothing!
She felt very sad,
For her friends she could not cheer,
She felt dark and drear.
She felt so alone,
One night as she went to bed,
She prayed and sobbed.
She was on her bed,
When her magic came,
She felt joy again!
She felt her sunshine,
Returning again to her,
She could help her friends!
She could spread sunshine,
To her dear fairy friends,
And help her parents.
She now felt happy,
She could fly very high now,
That her magic came!**
~Marian~
Dec 9, 2012
Dec 9, 2012 at 5:26 PM UTC
She was girl with the world on her fingertips
yet she didn't know couldn't see how it could end
No hope
she was hopeless even though
she could make it
She was put down
for being loud and proud
She was let down
by everyone around her
But she didn't see
her fire
She was put down
left out
broken down
She was a girl with nothing but the beating heart in her chest
yet she loved everyone and spread her joyfulness
Smiling wide trying to forget her past
She tried to make through and pass her test
She was worth it
thinking she was
Worthless
and she was amazing
But she didnt see
her fire
She was put down
She was left out
She was broken down
Tried to please
tried to be
everything but who she was
she disapeared
left from here
all because she couldnt see
her fire
Jun 1, 2014
Jun 1, 2014 at 11:11 PM UTC
summertime and its evening skys
with their colors that flow within my eyes
cool winds blow the night air, clear
perhaps the end is near for us to be together here
your love it seeme has disapeared
the wintertime so cold and still
snow falls silent upon the hill
the nights are lonely, full of emptinees
missing your eyes and that tender kiss
and i know now were i went wrong
the words i sing to, this sadden song
reminds e that your forever gone
springtime comes and the skys are blue
the sun is warm, the land anew
waters flow from the mountain high
i still remember your last goodbye
memories of you i'll always keep
i'll dream of you when i sleep
in hopes to hold you tight when we meet
but maybe it time to rearrange
to fine out its me that has to change
Nov 21, 2013
Nov 21, 2013 at 9:13 PM UTC
I am helping her out of the mirror
The girl who's crying...
The girl who looks like me
Her eyes are red from crying
And her heart is still raw
Trying its best to heal
But not doing so
The girl a sad expression
The girl with tears sparkling in her eyes
She is a lot like me
As I help her out of the mirror
I ask her what is the matter
Her reply was "I can't tell you"
I nodded my head and understood
I had felt that kind of pain before...
It hurt too much for her to tell me
How often I had felt that and so I understand
Another reason was because it was hard
For her to speak when she was crying
So very hard
Tears dripping from her chin
Heart ache too much to bear
Heart still raw from bleeding
Yet still containing love
More love than ever before
She can't help it
When I put my arm around her
To comfort her in her grief
She disapeared
~Marian~
May 7, 2013
May 7, 2013 at 11:36 PM UTC
What can I write for her ?
let me think ?
i got it !
IN THE HEAT OF THE PASSION AS WE HELD OUR BODIES TOGETHER
no not in the mood to go there.
hmmm maybe this ?
AS SHE BROKE MY HEART, THE WORDS FAITHFUL DISAPEARED
no don't want to go there
ok, i'll try this .
AS I SIT IN MY TEARS OF PAIN
no, no, no, way to depressing.
aww, this will get her back.
YOUR BEAUTY CAN'T BE TOLD WITH WORDS, A HEART SO FORGIVING
**** that, what a joke.
i got it, i really i do.
**** HER*
she ain't worth the effort.
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 1:33 PM UTC
We were sent to a pit
And burried in clear thin
Blood
From the rain and
Mud. The bayonetts screamed.
My face scared,
My chest opened
And layed out
In a picture that took
ten minutes to finish.
They jumped off
Into my youth
And rolled
The canons down my face.
My image burned
Until I found my self
Under the safty of
Calm waters
Where nothing
Concerned my
Fear. I closed my eyes
And slowly disapeared
Under the picks and grey
Shovels. Next to my enemies
Colored servant like the way stripes
Stick to a ball.
Lost and assumed here. My father and mother believe im still Burried in the mountains.
Underneath a rose bed of yellow roses. Please belive me when I say I m not a foe. Im not a forrest.
Im boston. Im the soft hymn emerson forgot to finish.
Sep 12, 2013
Sep 12, 2013 at 5:36 AM UTC
When we first spoke of Future,
I thought we were on the same page.
Dreams of happiness and comfort,
peace and togetherness.
But then we approached it again
and you instead spoke of money and travels,
and I realised it was
never the same.
When I mentioned having a home,
you first agreed that it was a need,
but only in a place
I would hate.
When I mentioned having a family,
you laughed at me and said ‘you wish’,
as though my feelings didn’t
matter to you.
When I was dreaming of you,
you were content dreaming of life without me.
I asked why I wasn’t
there with you,
and you said that I was
taking things too serious despite all our history.
Like I shouldn’t care that
we are temporary.
While I was lost in the
deep sea bright and clear in your eyes,
you were lost in thoughts
of real yachts
and a life that didn’t include me.
We were written in the same
fantasy book of a love stronger than love.
However, as we grew older,
our paces changed
and I disapeared chapters ahead of you.
Sep 19, 2024
Sep 19, 2024 at 1:48 AM UTC
"As a young lost little girl
Didn't look like nobody
Difference of skin color
Different beliefs
Wished for a future to the Sky's
Limit
But was told I wasn't good
Enough
Wasn't pretty enough
Hair is to dark
My race is *****
In an environment of pales
I never had a chance
Was always portrayed in a funny
Way
Nobody spoke to me, I literally wasn't
There
Invisible as the black sheep
In an all white field
Never knew what self esteem
Was, never heard things like
Good job or I'm proud of you
The mud below my bare feet
Is where my place was
Never remember holding
My head up, I was alone
Nobody to fight for
Me
Smoke filled homes almost
Took my life before i even
Had a chance to grow
Up
Everything was always hazy
I never knew what was to come
Or if I would see another day
Falling into a deep dark place
That has took
Me down in my
Adult days
Watching every minute on
The clock roll
By
Looking at movies over
And over praying for some
Rest
But it rarely comes
Its become a stranger
My best friend
Consuming my way of
Life
Living is like being in
Prision
Same walls every day
My world is minute,
Microscopic you might
Say
I'm falling fast
Pain has caught me now
Stabbing me, trapping me
Holding me hostage
But the price is to high
For freedom
Walking has become a
Luxury
Eating is like a
Sin
My room has become my
Home
All the other rooms have
Disapeared
To the right I allow
Myself to see a small
Piece of light
Sometimes i feel like I've already
Walked into the
Light"
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 8:16 PM UTC
My father used to tell my older sister and I that if we wanted to fly
All we had to do was jump and miss the ground on the way back
And we tried
We spent days at a time on that trampoline, jumping and twisting our bodies
And always having something to catch us when we realized we weren't birds
I don't remember when we gave up on flying because we didn't
She bought a car and drove so fast her mind grew wings and she disapeared into smoke stacks of cities I've never heard of
I paid $250 or two weeks of working my part time job and got to really feel it for a couple of hours
My father is waiting for us, like the mesh of that trampoline
To realize that if any kind of bird,
We are homing pigeons
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 10:19 PM UTC
Feared this.
Knew I wasn't good enough.
Your love was gonna finally fade.
Fade away from my heart.
You deserved better.
Better then what I could give.
Love faded, disapeared.
Days starts off good.
Ends in tears and sadness.
Words said and didn't mean.
Now that your gone and faded from my life
I sit here and wonder.
Wonder if I could of been the one that could
of kept you from all the pain and suffering.
Moved on, to someone elses arms.
Me sitting here alone and can't help to cry.
Fading from this world, just like our love.
Looking at the sunset on top of this hill.
wishing you were here to hold my empty hand.
Filling my empty heart.
Sep 22, 2015
Sep 22, 2015 at 3:49 PM UTC