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Denisse Apr 2014
Different people in same ways
Same problems but different decays
In this life, we should always move ahead
So wake up, get up in bed.

Have you ever think how does a round pizza place in the square box?
Not fit and compatible as rice place in sacks
Have you ever wonder why glue doesn't stick to it's container?
Not like hell where perfect folks are sinner.

It was cool how life brings unanswered questions
That made us wonder and suddenly make conclusions
It's funny how life brings confusement
When the only tool is perfect arrangement.
I guess you can call me ****** up
Because there is nothing in me
That is pure enough to touch
That is not broken
That is not tainted by the feeling of hurt
Confusement
Or angst
There is betrayal in me
Sadness
And anger
So leave the ****** up little being
In her cloud of broken dreams
A small group (or collection, if you wish)
of wanderers and travellers
And people with desires
to see great marvels
Met by accidence,
in a era of confusement
Held together,
by mutual suspicions,
they decided
To leave their abodes.  
So they travelled a long way
Until they were in a place
A very dusty place,
with dry old things
Dry like a last years leaves,
as if there were trees
In a scorching new summer

They decided by mutual acclamation
that they were searching now
A quest had been undertaken
By accidental serendipity
Or so they believed,
among themeselves
To find a way -
To no longer be
in this place of dust
With its winds,
and fierce sands
The kind the stings your eyes,
grits your teeth
sands your clothing
and small possessions
And after a many month of same such
Make's your light heart -
heavy.

But lacking a compass
or even knowledge of one
Or any real idea of how to travel
they moved in circles
for many's the long time
Never really sure they were,
arguing........ always
This is probably what kept them alive,
or at least
That is what many now believe
Their arguing - their fighting
this generates interest,
and interest keeps you alive
But still in spite of all this,
they weren't really
Getting -
Anywhere.................

Once in their travels,
they came upon a walled city
They knocked hard the gates,
made of a redded, felted wood
Soft to the touch,
like a hide of a living creature,
or rough carpet
"What do you want?!"  
"Who are you, state your business please!"
Cried the Gatekeeper to them
As this was his role
in the proceedings, you see;
And he didn't get to do it often
Very few people came
through the wastes,
unless.......Compelled -
by one reason or another
So he was overdramatizing (a little),
But we can forgive him,
his job was
quite boring,
after all.

Help us! They cried
We want to leave
this dusty dry place
Full of bleached sheep bones,
black stones
And red rocks;
with that dust,
The dust that stings our eyes
grits our teeth
sands our clothing
and small possessions
And after a many month
of wandering
And wondering
It has made our once -
light hearts
heavy
with opression
For now we cannot
perform our tasks
This place is too harsh for us,
We are only poeple,
and wanderers, after all

"Ah, I see!", the gatekeeper declaimed
A little over dramatically (yet again)
"So you are lost then,
my wanderers?"  
No!  Said several of the more......
outspoken wanderers.
There are always
a few outsoken people
in any group,
(Unless it's a group for shy people,
Of course).
"We, know precisely
where we are, -
We are in the dusty waste
at your gates!
We just don't want to be here!,
we want to be inside!"

At that, the Gatekeeper
opened the door
Slowly and surely
but with many creaks and groans
And inside, inside.....well -
There was a dusty city,
But just like outside
With unkempt streets
filled with goats, dogs, people
Unruly Children,
playing with dried out wood dolls
Angry woman -
murmuring to each other
And irritated men -
watching the angry women
"Come in if you wish" he said.
For we were all as you are now
Once....................................

To be continued.
Second draft of part 1
louis rams Jul 2015
what does it mean ? when i find myself" confused and lost" in a dream
is it the way my life is meant to be? i guess it'll just be a mystery !
all my life i managed the food line, something i thought i left behind.
working there i had a purpose - a goal , never thought about getting old.
each employee had a job to do ,and i'd make sure they followed thru.
life seemed so much simpler then , and the employees were all my friends
we'd go out and share a drink or two and talk about dreams we'd like to do.
yet i still have these dreams of being lost and confused , and of walking
alongside the shores , searching for something i never saw before.
it leaves an emptiness in my heart , not knowing if it's ending or a new start.
it becomes a question with no answer to be found , yet you search and look around trying to see something out of place, giving you a clue as to what to face.
you always find yourself in the middle of that " crossroad "
not knowing which way to go and whichever way you go leads you
to one crossroad after another to a point where there is no beginning
and no end and you scream out to find a friend.
                   ( confused and lost once again )
my sub conscious tells me it's just a dream, and i will awaken
to find myself in my room - no more confusement and no more gloom
then the recurring dream of me in a supermarket basement
with the conveyor belt full of merchandise and i don't know
if i should push the button to go " up or down " and i look
for help and there's  no one around.
               ( confused and lost once again )
that's when i realize there is only one thing that i can do
" give it to my father up above who is always there to show his love.
          " dear GOD there is nothing  more that i can do " confused and lost "
i turn to you to do whatever it is that you must
because in you i put my trust"
no more dreams and i'm on track , because my LORD has my back.
(C) L . RAMS 070515
Curlan Eiruc Jul 2015
Your eyes,they're dark.
Dark brown like the rich,bitter coffee in the cup you held in your hand.

Sprang!

The sound still echos around my mind,bouncing into its depths.

Your eyes,
They burn with a wild fire that is spreading towards my
Pathetic dull wooden pupils.

Your eyes,they're ice
An ice berg,big and towering. Like you are towards me.
I shiver.
I'm shivering, an earthquake starting inside me.

But your eyes,
So sharp.
They pierce into my soul even though I've done nothing wrong.

And at last
I burn away
I break
I bleed.

Ash,ice,blood
Pouring out onto my cheeks
In the form of
Sadness
Pain
Anger
Confusement
Longing.

I surrender and I fall
With you still burning,freezing and stabbing.
I write dark stuff sometimes
asg May 2014
This is my goodbye letter:

Goodbye,
   I hope to never see you face again. Not because I hate it, but because I hate the way it makes me feel. I don't like feeling confused when one shan't be confused. It does not sit well with me. There are many emotions I have come into check with but confusement is where I draw the thickest and final line. I must say I adored you, and idolized and revered you. I never saw myself beside you until you made it slightly apparent I was worth it. But that picture was never drawn, was it? It was never meant for us to be one no matter how much I yearned for it. We cannot simply be together so we must be far, far apart. So adieu, my neverwaslove, I hope I never see you again.
              
          Very Insincerely,                  
**Broken and Unsatisfied
Curlan Eiruc Feb 2016
Sometimes it's hard to open your eyes,
they want to close,
to sleep,
to forget,
to escape.

Sometimes the waves come crashing by,
when you least expect it,
when nostalgia presents it.

Waves of regret,
lost hope,
guilt,
confusement

Why did I do that?
What did I do wrong?
Did I deserve it?

Does the hit of the hammer of justice,
and the jury stands and shout
that you deserve it.

Were you right?
Were you wrong?
Is there really a way to tell after the knives have fell,
into a shallow well
and has pierced the ground
and opened hell?

Eternal impressions
in your heart,
these scars that
mark your depression
susan Oct 2015
i talk in verse
and get looks of disdain
rolling eyeballs the norm
shaking of the head
why can't she just talk normal
   on everyone's tongue
eyes filled with confusement

so i shake my own head
and walk away
looking to the empty page
of a, as of yet, unwritten poem
and there the verses flow
   to be embraced
     by the creative
       to be appreciated
by people
   like me.
sometimes i just can't help speaking like i'm reading from a book of poetry
ConstantEscape Apr 2014
My heart trembles as I walk to you.
It's over, I thought, for sure this time.
'I can't do this.' You tell me.
'Just do it.' I reply frustrated.
I looked deep into your eyes and all I saw was pity and confusement.
You took a breath.
'Break?' You ask.
Why didn't you say up?
Why just break?
I look at you, tears filling up my eyes. 'Bye.' I said as I hugged you one last time, inhaling your scent.
I walk away, biting my lips, rushing to the toilet hoping a tear doesn't fall before I reach.

I stood at my locker later that day.
You came and stood behind me.
You placed a hand on my waist.
I really wanted to use all my might to ask you to let go but it felt like home and I really missed your touch (it has been a long time)
I looked at your eyes, and I could see pity.
I couldn't look too far into them without crying.
'I'm sorry.' You said with a frown.
If you are breaking up with me for another girl, at least be happy about it. 'I'm sorry.' You said again.
'No. Don't say sorry. Don't say anything. Just say hi,' I replied
'Smile.' I continued.
You forced a smile and that was all I needed to convince myself that you were happier without me.

(I saw you with another girl after school and I guess you were happier after all)
he broke my fudging heart

— The End —