I was alienated from your love
that I longed to feel again,
to hear your voluptuous verbal diction,
reminiscing on the way you gave
me the chills, missing the kisses
and wishes fulfilled, how I could
always escape from reality
into your magnetic galaxy,
becoming helpless
around you’re your adorableness.
I didn’t know how to be strong
without you in my world,
hurting, starving, heartbreaking thoughts
filling my mind, drilling my brutal
verbs inside the corridors of my core,
relentlessly sobbing, rocking sideways,
trying to keep it together, but I was going down.
I was lost in love with you,
wanting to bring back all the times
that you made me feel like I had
found the greatest love that no one else
had discovered, consoling me, speaking
affectionate to me, assuring me that you
were the safest place to be,
I loved you so **** bad, going mad,
spending many cold and broken nights
secluded in my parked car, wondering
where did I go wrong, viciously hitting
the steering wheel, screaming, wishing
that you’d come back to me so that
you could heal my heart.
But I had to face the truth and realize
that you were never coming back home,
that you found magic in another woman
that was loving you, kissing you, touching
all your favorite spots, having wild
and spontaneous ***, ******* me up
to know that I was sitting on the sideline,
feeling it all, so far away from you,
so confused, endless tears streaming
down my cheeks.