Weronika

Weronika Nov 2017

crush

Every time I see you
My heart aches
Because you are not mine
Every time I feel you
My head spins
Because you are not mine
Every time I imagine being with you
My hands sweat
Because you will never be mine
And I will never be yours
It is hard
Not to imagine everywhere we could have been
Everything we could have felt
Everything we could have experienced together
I am not a stalker
I am not a follower
I like being alone
I also like being surrounded by those who love me
But you are never there for me
Because you do not love me
As much as I love you
You do not even know how many nights I dreamed about you
Your body pressed to mine
Sweat curling on our foreheads
Bodies moist from the acts
Hands joined in a loving embrace
I wish you knew
I wish you at least suspected something
By the looks I gave you
By the small touches
By the shy smiles we exchanged
I guess it was all me
An innocent crush
One-sided love
Never to be returned

#love #crush #hurt #lust

Weronika Oct 2017

cold

I craved it
every time I saw you
I imagined your body pressed to mine
but it was all just an illusion
a piece of art
created by my vivid imagination
then I remembered you did not care
you were just a statue
standing in the mud
and the rain
pale face with an odd smirk
I could not help it
I fell hard for that Cheshire cat's smile
but underneath it
there was sadness
constant despair
melancholy of words
said to the wind
that did not listen
and there was this coldness
in your limbs
no heat or passion
when next to the loved one
no feelings
no emotions
nothing
like a stone
cold to the core

#cold #lover

Weronika Oct 2017

lonely

coming back home
to those empty walls;
craving food
which could also be love;
hearing the emptiness of my heart
growing bigger and bigger until it stops.

closing my eyes and seeing my death --
the causes of nightmares and insomnia;
cleaning the kitchen that is never used;
breathing for you,
even though you do not exist.

looking at the quiet room -- imagining it full;
the bed remains made
because nobody cared to mess it

#loneliness

Weronika Oct 2017

love is blind

love is blind
you left me
and I never saw it coming
I am naïve
trust people who are not real
the people who are only bodies
no souls and minds
no reasons to stay patient and constant
like robots lacking emotions
you were my eyes
my heart
my everything
now I am lying on the ground
overwhelmed with the pain of existence
and I am blind
without you, I cannot see
but I choose to stay sightless
at least love will not fool me again

#love #blind #existence #pain #people

Weronika Oct 2017

the past

Closing my eyes now is the thing I cannot do; dark pictures appearing under my eyelids and haunting me like ghosts from my past who wanted to say goodnight

#past #darkness #pictures #moments #memories

Weronika Oct 2017

silence

I never told you that silence scared me
no movement
no sounds
the eternal stillness
we could linger in the calmness
stay close
hear each other's deep breaths
you barely heard me do it
I always stalled the inhales
to feel still for a moment
to suffocate
I just wanted to feel weightless
make the world stop for a minute
relax and be brought to life
for the last time
fresh and clean
silent

#silence #life #moments #night #thoughts #rebirth

Weronika Oct 2017

mistakes

how many years had past
until you realized
the right one for you
stood by your side your whole life
helped you
made you smile
lightened up your darkest days with just their presence
they just needed your attention
and you were busy
not giving them even the smallest part of it
because they weren't your type
even when you did not have a type
but you had this small evil-ish voice in your head
whispering to you
at the deepest moment of the night
that they were not worthy
they just wanted to hurt you
make you fall hard for them
break you precious and oh so fragile little heart
filled with regrets
flaws
and pain
then leave you
alone yet again
in the dark
doomed to die lonely
and broken

#mistakes #relationship #life #time