Rough night
Tough night
Wish upon a star night
Dreams don’t get too far night
Sad night
Bad night
Moonlight through the curtain night
Northing is ever certain night
Deep night
Weep night
Trying not to cry night
I just want to die night
Stress night
Mess night
Run away from here night
Can’t face my biggest fear night
Lightless night
Flightless night
Drown myself to death night
Take my last earthly breath night

cut from topaz and quartz
dipped in milk and honey
empowered by the moon
created a perfect paradise
and it was you.

Am I really one of them?
Is it really opened?
Am I even welcome?
Or is it just a lie?

A lie that I believed
To think I’d be deceived
For a door half opened, half closed
Not everyone can come in.

I gave you light
Led you to a path
Where you could see
The worth you have

I gave you eyes
So you could see
The spectrum of colors
In your monochromatic world

I gave you ears
To hear;
The melodies, the songs
The harmony in silence

I gave you a heart
To feel such emotions
Love, you will feel warmth
In the coldest times

I am blind, nothing to see
I am deaf, no music to hear
I am heartless
emotionless it may seem
But I’ve never been this useful.
Thank you

best part about having no friends
is having no enemies either
best part of having no significant other
is being able to feel whole by yourself
best part of solitude is
solitude
best part of loneliness is...
I wouldn't know that. I never
felt lonely.

Missing you
It's like trying
to breathe under water
and tonight I'm sleeping
at the bottom of the ocean

late at night, i lie awake
thinking of things i should have said
all the mistakes i've made
and signs i should've read

then think about what i can't live without
you, front and center in my mind
sometimes it feels like halfway love
almost, but not quite

still, parts of you make me whole
who i am and who i need to be
i think of love letters that weren't torn up
feelings of blue and green

when i'm without you
blank page, artless innocence
i realize how dependent i've grown to you
and feel the need to create a distance

sometimes i look up at the purple sky
and wonder if you're looking too
i gaze at the colors and the beauty of it all
though its beauty would never compare to you

I’m not scared of death
Or if it’ll hurt
I’m scared of never being loved
Never finding the person who was made for me and no-one else
Never being able to create a family of my own
Never reaching my goals
Never getting to see the rest of the world
Never being able to forgive or be forgiven

I’m not scared of death
Because death is inevitable
Because in death you see the lives you were able to impact
Because in death we find peace

I’m not scared of death
I’m scared of not living

Drowned in the night sky,
Dipped in starlight;
I wished upon your star
And you gave me a universe.