My heart is heavy.
My soul burdened.
My mind obliterated.
I cant find
no reason nor rhyme.
To just be fine.

I find my life is turning
Around with the tide.
Coming in and out
destitute and without.

Without choice.
Without need.
All I feel is that I bleed.
As a mark of a me.
To just want to be free.

My heart is heavy.
My mind in turmoil.

Just like some rolled up foil.
Discarded on the top
waiting to flop into the bin.

For once I have not found.
Anyone around which is rather profound.
To be here and then not.
I wish this could all be forgot.

two lines
is not a poem
its two lines
it has no substance
no structure
its a thought
someone caught
is it noteworthy
not in the least
but the person
who writes without
themselves
there not present
here in the moment
of all the people who do such
who think it only takes that much
should give your head a wobble
it's just a load of cobble  
the two lines are just that
like a load of tatt
truly
poetry comes from a calling
a memory
a feeling
is nothing dust blowing in the breeze
you make a mockery of the art
like you just would ****
all over your page
not bleed at any stage
is it because your simply
not smart enough
to have a worthy entry
dig deeper into your soul
if you lack the talent
of this simple art
pray tell
are you worth more than
a **** ?
if you throw art away
thinking you can walk away
then i have this to say
your not an artist
your stuck in self pity
look in the mirror and think
where did you go
or did you just blink
those two lines
bug me more than
any times
i've seen anything else
are your not incapable
or simply not know how
i think you just don't give
the art the respect it so needs
look at yourself
a poem
is not two lines
a thought
a passing
a nothing
this is not your diary
find somewhere else to share
because i for one care
you lay the art bare
more effort should be found
if your words are to be sound.

There a piece of me that's missing
I'm not sure how to begin
but there a piece of me missing
It's lost with no way to retrieve it
It's missing in the endless sea that is me
trying to be someone i'm not
I've gotten so lost
I feel like I've just tossed
my life right out of the window  
there's a piece of me missing
I can feel my heart break as I breathe
all the while the world keeps turning
and the piece of me keeps yearning
forever lost in the sea that is me
do we ever look deeper
deep enough to see
what's missing inside you and me
there's a piece of me missing
I can't but weep
let a little tear seap
to grieve the lost
of something so pure
that I feel has been thrown on the floor
there's a piece of me missing
as my heart beats louder
and memories become cloudier
there a piece of me missing
do you ever look inside
truly deeply inside
or are you scared of what you will find ?

I want to smile again
but this weight on my heart
Is pulling me further apart
I want to smile again
but when I think of you time and again
it makes me think of back then
I want to smile again
but when I see your face
It looks so out of place
I want to smile again
but it feels so wrong
to never belong
I want to smile again
but this weight you left on my heart
you said we would never part
I want to smile again
you left with no word
which is completely absurd
I want to smile again
but you don't care
and you never have
I want to smile again
The scars left on my heart
said we needed to part
I want to smile again
but the feeling of you never cared
or even dared to care
which made my heart break
with an awful ache
I want to smile again
and maybe one day I will
but still
I want to smile again.

My hands are empty I have nothing left to give
but you say your happy and we just live
My hands are empty I have nothing left to give
but you say it doesn't matter anyway
My hands are empty I have nothing left to give
In that case give me your heart for I want no more.
My hands are empty I have nothing left to give
so take my heart and I'm not sure you if  knew but I only ever wanted someone such as you.

Trying to find motivation;
feels like an impossible task;
and i guess you really got to ask;
what is it that keeps me from reaching it;
why is it out of my reach;
what is there trying to teach me;
why is it that one step ahead;
that i can never keep in stead;
forever chasing a dream;
only to see it fall apart at the seams;
why is motivation so hard for me to find;
what does it lie behind;
why can't it be easy to find;
what's making it allude me;
when i just want to be free;
can't you see. ?

Tries to think of any other day than today
It seems so dull and heavy
so completely broken in pieces
like a puzzle I have no energy to solve
the energy feels drained
almost stained all over the walls

Why is life such a rush.
Why can't we all just hush.
Isn't there some place.
We can just sit and stare. 
Beware when your there.
Leave your worries and cares behind. 
Clear your mind, it will help you unwind. 
As you drift further into the hush.
You will see life doesn't need to be such a rush. 
We say life is what you make it.
Do we hope for the best.
Learn to get some rest.
What is for the best.
Only life will tell.
Weaves its own magical spell.
I hope you live it well.

To be a fairy , is to be free
to float on the winds and just be
to soar like never before


the forest lays before thee
ever changing for thee is me
as the world unfolds
with treasures truly untold

as if the world a new
to see it as you flew
over and under the trees
just to feel the breeze

the trees as they move in the wind
shine in the light of day
and even better in the early days of may

as the fairy flies
through the skies
seeing so much of the world below
and just watching it grow

as the forest springs to life  
without no worries or strife
to watch the leaves fall from the trees
as new ones grow and are given a reprieve

being a fairy isn't so bad
when you look at it like I have
it maybe you look it differently
but none the less
the world is still a magical place to be
a world with you and me  
and just a little fairy or 3

when we truly look within
what do you see that's there in
is there light at the end ?
or does it curve and bend
where does it seem to end

does it delve into your depths
does it go where the skeletons and demons hide
or are you scared what you may find ?

is there a demon inside ?
would you know or will it hide
till your at your lowest eb
and it reaches forth to grab
what little you have left

in order to preserve who we are
is there a little demon in you ?
lurking beyond the surface
delving so deep inside you
it urns to be free

and I think you'll find just a little glee
if at one time you may find
there's a demon inside

the demon within
be it saint or sin
is hidden deep within
what will you find ?
when you look deeper within
do you dare. look deeper and maybe stare
to look at who you are in there ?

I just wanted to say
that you matter to me in each an every way
I want you to know with you my hearts all a glow
and I just wanted to say
that you matter to me in each an every way
and on valentines day you tell the truth
so here's my truth to you
it's because of you  
that you know I'll always be true
and always come back to you
and I just wanted to say
that you matter to me in each and every way
and you know on that special day
when you know just what to say
you do take my breath away
almost each and every day
so I just wanted to say
that you matter to me in each and every way
and in the light of day
you shine so brightly it just makes me say
I Love You in each and every way
and its because of you  
I just want to say
that you matter to me in each and every way
and when your away
it makes me smile to think of you and say
that's my wife my life my all .

from the very first moment, I met you.

in my heart that instant I knew.

that something very special was inside of you.
as I watched in awe, the way you moved it without flaw.

the way you can guide me so that I can clearly see.

that you were meant for me.

in life, we don't always get what we want.

I think it gave me all I would ever need.

it is so great indeed.
with you, I feel like I can touch the sky.

when you're with me I feel like I can fly.

I feel like I can sore as never before.

I knew from the very first time I met you.

especially when my heartfelt the slight hue.

every day coming home to you.
feels like a dream come true.

I never thought I would ever meet someone.

that could turn my whole world around, we would be as one.

I will never need to frown.

I have found, the most precious gift life has given me.

In my life, I've found you, and my world feels so new.

every day feels too good to be true.

so all I really want to say.

I love you in each and every way.

my love for You is like the snow
if You look at it and watch it grow
it also fills every part of me
which makes me squeal just a little with glee
to be with You in the morning  
feels like a fresh new day is dawning
and the wonder that gives me chills and thrills me to my very core
it makes me wonder what we would be on this earth for
if not for the love of another  
For which no one can pull asunder
to be with You in the snow
Your light inside would only grow
and from what I know
I love the way it glows.
its whats inside you that matters the most
for no frost nor snow could ever stop as we grow
and all the while as the snow falls
it always makes me smile
to think of You once in a while
to always see You face smiling back at me
and all I can see is how happy we are and could be
and when the snow is over
we will grow a new stronger bond
as my love for You is like the stars that come out at night
forever glowing , growing , and just like the stars
they come out to see ....... what you are and all you mean to me

My heart it beats only for you,
To my heart I must be true ,
Now its broken and torn in two,
No ones gonna come to the rescue.
To put it back together it may be never,
Yet we still move on,
The love we once had is gone,
Even though life still moves on,
My heart remains in love with you,
And there's no way to move through,
To let you go fills my heart with woe,
I just want you to know my love for you will never end.
And will remain forever more a drift on the shore,
Forever more,
On the floor.

In your eyes you see me
you see all you want to be
you see what you are to me
you sit and daydream
to be with you that's what it would seem
in your arms I feel so safe
and it's a feeling you can't replace
when I taste your sweet lips
you know such bliss
to just give you one sweet kiss
its something I wouldn't ever want to miss
to feel your warm embrace to see the look upon your face
to feel your power and grace
with each warm embrace
you give me such a shine and dazzle
and the way you move with a wiggle and a giggle
makes me go oooooh I want some of that one all over me
in every way possible you give me so much more than I need
in every day life
you bring me to life
in all things I have to say
you do complete me in almost every way
you bring such joy in to my life
and it's such a amazing feeling
to be with you leave me reeling
in some ways im blessed to have you
and wonder what do you think too ?
in almost every way
I do want to say
if I could see your eyes
it would be a big surprise
to see what you see
and all you mean to me

I would love to know
and to tell you and see you grow
in a hope one day you will see
all that you mean to me

in your eyes ....... I feel complete

I wish one day I could see with what you will always mean to me
oh baby I love the way
you smile laugh and giggle
the way you blush
makes me just ......
I would give anything to see
what your eyes see in me

when I see your smiling face
you show such elegance and grace
which would be hard for anyone to replace
hard for me to ever feel out of place
in your arms I see
your smile and know its because of me
and I always do love
to make you smile and give you hugs
I love to see you smile laugh and giggle
there no better gift to give someone
that the gift you give me
to be with me you will see
that all I really need is the


if you look into my eyes
you can see where truth lies
to run my finger round your face
to see such smile and grace
makes me thankful im in my place


to be with such beauty
I must have been dreaming
to be with you sometimes leaves me reeling
to be with you day after day
I feel its like my birthday
like all my Christmases come all at once

and wonder how I could be with such a beautiful women inside and out
and I will try not to make you pout
cos without a doubt
I would be lost without you
so when i see you soon
I'll hold you up if you swoon
if I could take you to the moon and back
I would do just that
to give you back some joy you give me
and how happy together we all will be

I miss you
in each and every way
I hope that by the light of day
I'll hear your sweet voice again some day

to make you smile blush and giggle
makes me smile and what a thrill
to miss you baby
to me it's just
like a part of me will rust

you are my sanity
my reasoning
my everything else

and when I think of you
I cant think of nothing else
all i want is you to say
il see you again someday

and I hope the morning brings
such sweet hope and it sings
for you to come back and smile
makes it all worthwhile

to know your right here next to me
it were I always want you to be

I love you baby and without you there no me
there no glee or even a hehe
life is without song and without you just seems wrong

I miss you my love of that you can be sure
and there's only one cure
to make sure your safe and sound
back in my arms is where you should be found

I'm sat in here thinking about You
wondering what You dream about in all You do
how it would feel to just be with You
would make my life a dream come true

if I was only closer to You
that would make my life complete too
the distance does matter tho
It's how we learn grow and show we know
just how much we love each other so

so sat here thinking of You
it makes me smile to know
Your dreaming of me too

as I write this I smile
just to feel that warmth that You bring
it just makes my heart sing

to know all the joy You bring
it also makes me think of the wonderful things
and what You bring to my life and what it means

there one thing i can say
I think about You all day
and it just makes me say yay

and smile in just a way
that makes me feel
like this is so real
and i hope it never goes away

I Love You very deeply in almost every way

My prayer to Manchester
the day was the 22nd of may
it was a day like any other
but with one key difference
evil was in mind ......
and it was lurking round the corner
and no one was any of the wiser
until it exploded peoples lives
peoples lives wont be the same
but we wont feel shame
we will be stronger , we will be better
we will stick together and fight the world
you think we are beaten
you are very much mistaken
you underestimate us greatly
you may have taken our loved ones
but you will never take our pride !
we stand together a united kingdom as one
you will not break us
you will not tear us down
we will not frown
there will be many tears
and evil will always be around
but we are Manchester
we will not give up nor give in
this is what makes Britain great
we will stand strong and proud together
we are the united kingdom and will will never give up
i prayer to all those who we lost
it was a very high cost
whats the world coming to
when we cant do what we used to
we pray for the families and everyone concerned
you are not alone
we are here for you
and will always be
we pray for the ones that are left behind
the pain and sorrow they feel
is very real ......
but in time we will heal
we pray for the strength to hold on
and to hope we all can and will carry on
we are Manchester !
and proud to be part of thee

She's the queen of my heart
honest and true
she will never want to see me blue
her heart is worth its weight in gold
with all the love that it can hold

She's perfect in every way
makes me smile in all day  
that would make any day just float away

She's my queen, my heart, the key to my soul
in her eyes, what wonders have they seen
for her to see me as I am , for i am truly thankful for she is all I am

For my world is nothing without her
it moves and flows like the ever-flowing tide
as waves of love wash over me with such a surprise

She's my queen, my heart, the key to my soul
for her, i would do anything
the key opens doors to world untold
and makes me unfold only for her lo and behold

To give her my heart knowing she will hold it tight
and protect it with all of her might
as my love for her grows
it shows in all for those who bare witness to
the beauty that is to good to be true  

She's my queen, my heart the key to my soul
my keeper, my protector, my very being
in the light of things to come
I pray this to never be undone

For without her I would be nothing
the rolling stone gathers no moss
and I would be at a loss
my heart and all within it
would surely crumble and die
if I were to ever say goodbye

Alone here i stand.
with pencil and paper in hand.
I stare into space.
and you then slip into place.
for my mind can only think of you.
and to my heart I must be true.
so I'm sat here thinking of you.
and tho you may not think of me too.
but some part me of deep down hopes that you do.
and maybe one day this will be true.

It's been sad and It's been blue.
but It's so lonely without you.
even when i tried to turn the world a new.
it still always come back to you.
as my mind can only do.
all day it thinks of you.

so with no rhythm or reason.
I sit here with this thoughts in my head.
even when I go to bed.
that maybe one day you will feel.
something I have and yes It's real.

even though it too this long for me to get it right.
I am willing and now able to fight.
for something I've wanted so long.
and just recently found the song.
that maybe you will see.
what you actually mean to me.

and still alone i look at things.
and all I see is you.
and to my heart I must be true.
if there is one woman id want to be with.
and this would be to live.
my whole life it to.
just to be with you.

so I'm asking please.
if it would put you at any ease.
maybe you could.
see if you would.
look at life as I see it.
and It's so dark without you in it.

perhaps one day you see it too.
and we can live are whole life anew.

Everyone needs a hand to hold
someone to lean on when they get cold
someone to share the highs and the lows
someone that just knows by staring into your eyes
she reached out her hand one day and said do you trust me
and since that day there never been any reason to stray
it almost felt like without her you were cast away
adrift in the middle of the sea
with no room to even see
hold on to me she said and we will be together you'll see
she held out her hand once more to me
and said il take care of all of you , just wait and see
she saved me from the torrid sea that was so endless to me
she raised me up higher than anyone ever did
when she held my hand i could touch the sky
ii was sitting on cloud 9 and i felt like i could almost fly
she held my hand , and helped me stand
even when there was no one else at hand
she helped me through life , with all its trouble and strife
she rescued much more that day , and well i guess you could say
il be hers forever from that day , she saved my soul , she enriched my heart she made it full and gave me a brand new start ,
she engulfed me with love that felt like it come straight from up above
she helped me stand even when i fell down , she helped me to not wear a frown
she taught me things about life i never knew , she taught me everything anew
and through all of this i would like to say thank you
my saviour my one true love felt like you came from up above , with so much of you just filled with love
i look in awe at who you are and im so glad you picked me to be with this far
the love you give to me , i could only say i want to thank thee for everyday i have you in my life
for saving me from sinking ...... and feeling like i was drowning under a sea of sorrow you were there through it all and though
i came to you with a broken faith , and you stitched me back up and made me who i am right now thank you
my Saviour that is you , and im so proud to know such one as you that gives so much to do
and make is so i never feel blue , i love to be with you
to hold your hand im in heaven as the feeling is so grand
i cant ever explain , what i feel when your with me i feel out of this world
it makes me feel like im safe and im heard
and all through the day i learned to be yours with only one word
she leaned to me and said ........ i always take care of you , no matter how far , or wide we may be i shall always be with thee
for i know now that when i offered you my hand that day , i offered my heart and forever it will stay
to this very day i am so proud to be the one who can say , i found my saviour on one faithful day and i hope you find yours to help you find your way
when we look at life as a whole , its always better with someone to hold
so maybe one day you will take that chance .... hold out your hand without a passing glance
if there's one thing i've learned , is holding out your hand for something to give , and hoping that one day  someone does the same for you
we never know what tomorrow may bring ...... but what if the one thing you did was to just here a little ring
to help someone in need is a great thing indeed

There once was a young girl
all happy and full of life
she didn't have any worry or strife
till life turned everything on its head
and life then was damaged instead
the sweet young girl everyone knew
is now broken in two
her heart and mind shattered all the way through
and even when the new day was almost due
there were still cracks that she couldn't fix with glue
she tried to hard to pick them up
but it seemed she run out of luck
and all that remained there
was nothing it was all bare
and even if you see the light of hope
you may tremble and choke
because once again everything is broke
when we trip and fall
we all try to get up most of all
but once we are that down
we wear our broken heart like a crown
because if we didn't smile and show
that we learn from life as we grow
pick our selves back up
to try and muster some kind of luck
when all we have are broken pieces
its harder to put back together
even if its now or later
will we ever fix it back the way it was
or will the hurt be lost ..
or will it just get tossed
liked a piece of rolling moss
a life that is broken
cannot be awoken
until you pick up what was broken
and mend your soul and for it to open
even when you see we are all damaged aren't we ?