I'm missing you so much tonight S, the memories from yesterday
dance behind my eyes, are locked in my mind, the way you kissed my lips, nuzzled the nape of my neck, traced the curves of my ******* and my body with your tongue setting off a tremor inside
When our bodies are joined it leaves me breathless. I'm addicted
to you . Its the only word that describes this feeling inside and just like all the other times my mind and body are never at peace until
I give it chance. So right now, I'll give it chance to explore those feelings again, alone. Close my eyes, take myself back to
our union, breathless and hungry for each other. Body to body, never wanting those moments to end. What a sight to behold. How you loved me, how I loved you how we became one with each other
It was beautiful. And I will always remember each moment shared. I never want this to end, loving you, wanting you
I want this forever and I hope you do too S

Its the worst feeling right in the lowest pit of my stomach missing you like this. Too many days pass without you, but my mind is engulfed by you, every moment of every day. The eternal void I constantly dread, that one that longing commands. Dates pencilled in when you come to town seem so far away, yet move ever closer and each day is more tangible than the last but so much further than the next. Our time is fleeting yet all encompassing but one blink and its gone. I wish tonight you were here next to me, just like I imagine every night. A cuddle, a kiss, a smile as we drift off to sleep. Internal landscapes we walk together. And upon waking in the glint of dawns first light, we share the day's first kiss. Fingers wander, tantalized by our warm flesh and pull each other close, hold on tightly never wanting to let go. And maybe I'll hold on too tightly and not let go. But that time will make itself known, when our bodies have to let go. I'll have to let you go again. I'll wait for the days to pass, moments which turn to hours, hours to days, days to weeks. So slowly they will pass. But my heart will beat just a little faster, a little stronger when I hear your voice and I know it won't be long S, until we can be together again.

Words should come easily, but they don't
Only when something takes hold of me do the words flow
I need to be fired up for
my emotions to flood out
In this case its writing
Words
like this
Never before is this something I have felt the need to do
so I thank you for setting off this new discovery in me
A liberating time
I can let go
Without remorse
Regret or
false hope
I can write from within and be free to do so
And all this stems from you
The way you make me feel
I owe this very instant to you
To my discovery of self
and the discovery of life I want to make with you
There is so much we can discover
for ourselves
It's just a question of whether or not we allow this to happen
There is the possibility that this could all end tomorrow
I have to accept this
I try not to think this way but it jars all the same
If only I could read you each day
What your thoughts are
I could be a shoulder to rest on
warm skin to touch
Lips to kiss
A body to share
But I can't do this just yet, not yet for the long game
I hope that within this life we can make a space in the world
just the two of us at peace with each other
Make a new life of hope, to take on the future and leave the past behind
Just say the words S......

The feeling you have right now,
are you ever afraid that you will never feel it again?
That it will never be real?
That it never existed?
For what is that feeling without hope?
Is it too far from reach?
Could it be possible
that the feeling you have right now
might last forever?
Do you want that?
Do you not deserve that?
It would be a shame
not to try and make it
a possibility

I am in love with a man
That man is you S
I want the world to know
The time will surely come

Time is precious, this I know
And I want to make
the most of every moment with you
All of you

You tantlise my soul
Ignite a fire in me
Radiate within me
And light our worlds up

For I am yours
eternally
If this is your wish
I feel your desire too

Too many miles separate us
Likewise too many days
Lets take a journey
for always

When all I want is you
You can’t be here
You want me by your side
To keep you warm
It’s all I want too