Words stop
Throat shouts
Head whirls
Reality curls

Tears could be shed
In front of their heads
And then they'd know
How deep the hole goes

So I hold it in
Only letting them reach brim
And I pause my head
Check reality instead

You looked me in the eyes
And I felt myself
Words buckled behind my chin
As I tried to keep my feelings within

Weeks passed
And I tried to forget
Those hateful words forever locked in my head

You say you want respect
But isn't respect earned
And how can I respect the man
Who pointed me to the curb

And I get your trying
But don't you think I'm trying too
And if I'm unearthed
Don't you think there's something better you could try and do

Because even if the words weren't meant
To be heard that way
I still don't know
Why those words
Are the ones you chose to say

Every month
Of every year
I still care

Every week
Of every month
I still miss you

Every day
Of every week
I still see you

Every hour
Of every day
I still need you

Every minute
Of every hour
I still cry for you

Every moment
Of every future day
I still love you

Welcome to the world baby girl
We'll always hold you near
Except if we decide your existence
Is something that we fear

Welcome to the world young girl
Is that something different that we smell?
Make sure to ignore that
Or we'll no longer treat you swell

Welcome to pre-teens, girl
Quit questioning yourself so much
Read the societal guidelines
So the critics don't get in touch

Welcome to your teens, girl
I'm sure you're enjoying your stay
Don't let the fear of being ***** or murdered
Get in your merry way

Welcome to young adulthood, girl
We hear you are quite confused
Your gender and sexuality
Are something this society has refused

Welcome to adulthood
Except you aren't welcome at all
Society only lifts up some
And lets the others fall

The space between who I am
And who you see me to be
Grows larger by the day
Every time we are together
I am so far away
The words you speak
Speak not of me
But rather, some person
You've conceived