picture an awkward scenario
as bad as the cringiest tv show
that's funny, despite being no joke
threatening to consume my world, whole
there was a girl from home I knew
from childhood, and with whom I grew
romantically ambiguous, but cool
great lifelong friend, through and through
but here in college, I have met
a kindred soul, who thus has led
a life of forced and rushed success
and, like me, is now rather depressed
and yes, I fell in love with her,
as if under a familiar curse
an emotional and unquenchable thirst
for companionship, and far, far worse
and here does the dilemma arise
a barrier guarding the sought for prize
peculiar, in where its roots do lie
one so dangerous, that I may now die
oh, of the sheer and utter shame
from the depths of which, i cannot be saved
for of the two, one I now betray
along with the other, have the same name
a dramatized version of actual events