It hurt so much because it was an almost
We almost dated,
We could’ve fallen in love,
But we didn’t.
The hardest part is not knowing why.
Why did we drift apart?
Why wasn’t I good enough?
I deserved closure
But you couldn’t give me that.
You cross my mind
Every once in a while
And the wondering stings.
We will never know
What we could have been
And the unknown
Is what breaks me.

Today
Tomorrow,
Yesterday
And
Every
Way
In
Between
A
Day

Each
Is­
One
Less
Of
A
Day,
In 
Some
Unexplainable
Way
I
Have
You
To
Expl­ain
Away..

What
Could
I
Possibly
Say,
When
You
Ask
Me
How
I
Feel­
About
You???

I propose I don't feel a bout you;

I feel you.

Your presence,
Your passion,
Your devotion..

I feel it
I feel you..

I'm spinning in motion
Fluid with ample emotion,
To flood the grandest ocean..

I feel it in quotation;
"My world"
I feel it in rotation

I 
Feel
You.

I
Love
You.

I
Do.

I really, really do.

I feel I should thank you,
I must thank you..

For you, I'm so grateful
Be it a cause without you;
I'd be a cause to be lost,
A reason to be hateful..

I walk the line
One that is mine;
Made of my own bundles of time withered twine

Sick as sorrow
Ill I fear
Will become tomorrow;
I feel it near
As it gets louder
The sound I hear..
For I am bait, it states
Telling me of my fate
Self-delegated
Intra-personal, between
Me myself & I, loud & clear

A heated drum
Banging words that go ***
Bitter shame
Brighter shun
I can not change what all I've wrong
I can not help who I have become
Perhaps I have come too far undone
Outdone
I'm spun
Anyone??

The sun above
My feelings below
I think too much
I think
I think about my head hitting a pillow
Muffling the sounds my heart yearns to wallow
When ever I think of all I've done & said,
Of all I'm ashamed of
My hands are sure to be holding my head up..

When you can feel your temperature change a degree, it's strange
When you are sure calories have just converted into energy and climbed atop a great cell divide,
When you fraction yourself merely just to survive
When who you were turns blue right in front of you and you don't do all that you could do to revive

When you feel like feeling isn't fair,
When you think knowing too much is as certainty a disability 
When you are so far out of touch you're self reflecting 
When you are so tired of hearing it you close your ears to spite your sound ability to listen
When you have said all that is in your head,
Maladjusted as is everyone you once trusted

When you fall to the ground because your heart aches, and not a soul is around

When you begin to realize to really realize
Decipher the real from the lies aka the truth apart its guise
It is so crippling ..
You immediately begin to paralyze

what would you do if i tell
your mind to take a rest,
because all of people that died before us
are now living in our chests.