I don't know if I miss you anymore.
I mean, my chest still aches subtly
And my throat burns when I say your name
And my eardrums explode when I hear someone with your laugh
And I nearly go insane everytime a thought of you pops in my mind
But i don't believe I miss you
Because I haven't called in a while
And I don't ask people how you are
And I'm slowly forgetting the color of your eyes
And I can feel you forgetting me.
I know I still think about you
Just about everyday
But I think I miss the thought of you
More than I miss the person who all the thoughts belong to.

I know it may seem odd
But sometimes
I can be in a crowd
And still feel alone

Mindless nightmares
Soft, silent breath
Nobody there
Just awaiting **death

I feel like I'm cheating
When I kiss him
Or hold his hand
I feel so guilty
When I'm happy
And content in his arms
I feel like I'm cheating
On you with him
And all the things you do for her
You never did with me
Makes me feel justified
My ****** up head
My ****** up life
***** this

If he cheated with you,
he's gonna cheat on you.

I thought these feelings were gone
but they're still buried deep inside
and you're like a grave digger
Your shovel stabbing at me
sharper than a knife.
You ripped me wide open
you tore me to shreds
and if you asked me to take you back,
my answer would probably be yes.