They say
It looks like I haven't slept in days.
The circles under my eyes
Are darker than the midnight sky.

I look around,
But I do not see.
A part of me
Is empty.

I wish he could feel what I feel,
because not knowing is hurting him so
and the last thing I want to do
is break apart his heart and soul.

He came back for a reason
wish I knew what it was.
I'm still a wreck in a dress
and he's on top of his world.

My heart is a time bomb
always counting down,
ready to explode
I really hope he can get out.

It was only a year ago
When we sat down by the tennis courts
Watching the fireworks.

You put your hand over mine
And I lost track of time
Under the fireworks.

The way you looked at me
Like I was the only thing you could see
While we listened to the fireworks.

Now all this time has passed
What we made was made to last
Because every time you touch me
I can still feel the fireworks.

When he put his hands on me
he took my last bit of dignity.
I pushed him away,
but he kept coming back,
cuffed me to a chair
and touched every part of me.
It was over fast,
but the feeling inside me will never pass.

I loved him the most


And I hurt him the most.

I'm lost in a sea of twisting emotions,
the ship that I'm in
sinking more every second.
One last forceful wave
strikes right in the middle
and the stern and the bow
are now separate pieces.
I can feel myself being pulled under,
into the frigid, black water
I'm holding my breath,
but I can't much longer.
You can't hear me screaming for help,
so I just keep it all to myself
for no one can save me now
as I've already begun to drown.