Figured you had enough
because I'm alone.
Dialing to call your bluff
but there is no tone.
You think you wanted more,
but I could've shown you more.

Figured I fell too deep
in the abyss of my dreams.
Underwater underworld,
don't wake me from sleep.
Figured that you figured me out,
but nothing's what it seems.

Prescribe me prescriptions
to bottle these emotions,
devour my devotion
and keep refills in motion.
Above the surface is dry
but underneath is an ocean.

Tainted by the truth,
I fail before the finish line.
I fell the more I closed my eyes,
and it's the easy way
to get away, to contemplate,
is it my turn today?
To see what's left after fate
is to no longer see anyway.

Fixated,
I'm bound to the stake.
Chest ripped wide open,
here's my heart to take.
You thought love was fake
until you felt the warmth I gave,
but then it was too late.
I'm hanging by a string,
I might let go of this thing
that's been keeping me
from being me.

With no options to weigh,
I pull myself away.

Mama, where is the light?
I'm lost in my direction,
my heart beats deep in the night.
You were the only one who'd listen
but I continued to hide
behind the truth that wasn't missing.
You are gone and I'm still living
but not really living.
Nothing but pain that I've been given,
I've been driven
to the neverland of nothingness.
Mama gave her all and nothing less,
but what she left behind was all a mess.
She was here and felt pain
but still loved the same way
and that was a beautiful gift.
Only for her sake, I will never take
no one else for granted that way.

Picture waking up from a bad dream,
mama is fixing herself
something to eat.
I'm so happy she's here,
I don't want her to leave,
but she looks at me sadly
like she couldn't believe.
Only then I realized,
I'm still in a bad dream.