I stopped caring about you
The way I used to
I no longer scan crowds for you
Like I used to

I treat you like a friend
Not a special friend
Just, that friend
The one I ignore  

I see you, and wonder why?
Do you feel the need to make me jealous
Does it look like I't'd bother me
If another girl was in your arms

You're just you
That spark I saw is gone
Intense feelings? Dead
Your jokes aren't even that funny anymore

You still do cute things sometimes though
Like trying to dance when a song you like is on
Or whispering corny things to yourself
And tapping your foot when you're upset

I can't completely ignore you
After all,
I did once care for you
In a way that drove me to insanity

However, if you tried to build what was destroyed
Nothing would be the same
I wouldn't be the infrastructure holding us
And being the pretty paint isn't going to be enough this time

Once our lips meet my love
I will enter a sparkling web of stars
A nebula of diffused and swirling light
Once a dark silhouette cast upon my life
The distance traveled is upon me now
The entire lifetime of our existence reminds
We are so small in his eyes, far and near
And as you keep kissing me, as I dreamed
Each one becomes supernova
More beautiful and violent than the last
Swallowing the one from before
Growing ever larger with gravitational lust
Until galaxies swirling far away find their place
Inside my once void and formless existence
But they will never be large enough
To be even pearls in God’s eyes
For that is why we close ours
To find the light in our own line of sight
The one that is now pressing upon our bodies
Bursting into pieces like the stars that drew us near
The ones that burst long before Christ died
And as my heart is risen inside of me
I can only feel the longing in your arms
As you pull me close to the world of mystery
That draws me to my balcony every night
To renew the vow I made to myself long ago
I will endure God’s wish that I witness the dark silence
Until it becomes the pillars of your breath in my ear
Soothing my longing as what is upon me now
Are the arms of light and memories of the past
But a past of creation and not destruction my love
For you were always the beginning and never the end