I finally found you again

its been years but

I could never forget your

barley laced breath,

sneaking cigarettes

burning everything

but yourself

your burial only hid

the covers of your flesh

who knew that you would

resurrect

into someone I had never met

dipping himself in liquor

his angered tremble

is reminiscent of yours

how foolish was I to believe

you would ever let me out the broken

door of my existence




you must have missed this

you must have wished this

curse upon me!




I suppose its expected when a tomb

remains occupied with life

if only you would die

if only you would drown yourself

lifeless in liquor

if only you would bury me too

and leave me well enough behind.

Domestic violence in my heart
With eyes that wage a war
And lips that speak of more
He takes our ******* and calls it art

They didn't write about this in the fairytales of my childhood
They never told me love could fade away
That it is hard to find, but easy to lose

They never gave me forewarning that my heart could be broken by my prince
Or that I could be the breaker of his
Who knew we were given such power, such responsibility?

They never told me there were other princesses roaming in his mind
They never told me of other princes who could catch my eye
Who knew of such dishonesty, such infidelity?

Who knew love was something so fragile?
As if it were porcelain it slips through your fingers so fast
To be shattered like the illusion of the fairytale love story in your mind
When you see the truth a ******* leaves behind

12-17-2-13

Her face flooded with scarlet
her nose flushing out bright red
Did I do it?
Did I do that?
How could I just do that;
was it someone else instead?
She says three separate people
control the thoughts inside my head.
"which one is the realest"  she asks.
I'm not pretending when I ask for amending.