I belong in the heavens
and then I'm under the ground.
I reach the clouds
and then sweep the dirt.
I'm on a rollercoaster
till the end.

Nearing the heights
Of the rollercoaster’s first climb,
With its challenges and uncomfortableness.
Now
Anticipation
Of that stomach in your mouth vertical drop moment of
Fear, exhilaration and excitement.
For you’re on the cusp of  
The ride of your life
To remarkable extraordinary summits
Not yet imagined,
Only mere glimpses of,
Til now. . .

You’re already on
The ride of your life
The thrill of your life
With its screams, excitement and fear,
The ups and downs
And ins and outs.
This adventure,
Your adventure,
starts right now.
The time is right.
Perfect timing.
Divine timing

Reaching the highs, where the most authentic lives are lived, easing across the skyline, dreading yet expecting the plummet.

Often where the desire to have fun outweighs the fear of imperfection.

Lowering to a place where isolation becomes clear, where the angst of missed opportunity is knocking on your door.

Looking for the high that we so ever desire, yet only reach it at the most unexpected times.

Eager to soar, to see, to experience, at times seems like the only pulling thread.

Rising above what once was the best. Living out every dream ever dreamt

Crossing each path with a decision to make, every imprint, every character, has the capability to be an influence.

Overtime recognizing those who were true, those who were meant to stay and protect.

Anger, doubt, agitation and more, lows yet without them we would see no highs.

Standing and reflecting on the times that have passed, waiting and anticipating on the top encounters.

Trying to make the most of what is love, memories, and time.

Ever so carefully approaching the edge before the drop, inhaling and exhaling as the wood creeks.

Riding what feels like the longest experience in life. Ups and downs, rights and lefts, all to make a full circle, but the gaps are still yet to be discovered.

When i said
'living on the edge'
this was never what i meant.
What i meant was a real party all night
without a parents' permission;
not a pity party at night
with my self destructing notions.
What i meant was real rollercoasters
or going on life adventures;
not rollercoasters of all my life's emotions.
What i meant was a swim in the ocean
or to face my darkest fears;
not an ocean
of my darkest fears facing me.
And when i said
put 'happy' and 'die' together;
i meant to 'die happy'
not be 'happy dying'.
My life is not what i had meant