You will not break my mind
You will not shatter my spirit
Try me as you want and you will find
That I am quite resilient

Being okay is not something you can just achieve overnight, or over a day, or even over a week. It's not something you rush, it's something that takes time, an uncertain length of time.

It would take you on some sort of uncertain journey knowing yourself, like knowing what makes you not okay today, or what makes you feel alright again the next day.

You will really never know when will you be completely okay, that's the truth; but the good thing here is this: you have all the time in world to finally be.

You have all the time for yourself to use it, to take the chance to  finally learn how to say "I'm not okay." at times you're not. Denying the truth to yourself won't help, accepting it and embracing it, would. You have to treasure that downfall moment, everyday; every weekend, in a midst of everything.
You have to do something about it, and what's more to create something from it, of all people; for yourself.

It can be a messy puzzle to fix, it can be a long process to be done with, but remember this:  It's okay to work on being okay, it's okay to find out what would work for you or what would not;

than to fret and work on nothing at all.

if i ever thought
i thought of you

if i ever dreamt
i dreamt of you

if i ever sang
i sang of you

if i ever prayed
i prayed of you

if i ever swam
i swam of you

if i ever breathed
i breathed of you

if i ever wondered
i wondered of you

if i ever awed
i awed of you

if i ever howled
i howled of you

if i ever waited
i waited of you

if i ever laughed
i laughed of you

if i ever cried
i cried of you

if i ever walked
i walked of you

if i ever spoke
i spoke of you

if i ever dreamt
i dreamt of you

if i ever thought
i thought of you

"Please don't laugh at me when I say this:
I want to get out.

I want to get away, just once. Be in a place I've never been to before. Meet new faces. Play new songs with new ears listening. Begin writing some verses without ending one.

I want to get out, out of this house, this walls; this city. I want to be alone with myself for a couple of days. I want to leave some emotional tickets and let them be thrown along the way. I felt trapped, I felt stucked. These corners doesn't give me a sense of comfort anymore, they starting to **** me in.

For once, after all these years, I want to get out without thinking what would cost me and what would I will be leaving behind once I fly away.  

Just for once I want to so badly to get out.
And mostly, just for once; I want to live my life outside someone's expectations."

Don't get attached to someone so easily.
Sometimes people can't be predictable.

Like one minute they'll make you believe you're in a paradise with them and everything is in magic, and then the next minute you are already all alone, swimming at a dry lake, and everything is empty. There's a huge difference between that. And you, you
owe it to yourself to know what is the difference within the two.

It's not being dramatic over things. It's a self aid from certain people, from uncertain feelings.

Suddenly you're twenty, and you'll lie on your back, you'll face the ceiling and you'll look at it like it's only thing that mattered in the world for you.

You were old enough but you were
too young to think like one
You were breathing but you're not alive.
You were on your back
but you were not there.
There's a certain coldness
around you but you're bathed in sweat
There's an endless flow of tears
but your eyes had long ran dry.

There's a burning hole in your mind that kept on thinking about the things you might have done wrong, or the things that could go wrong tomorrow or the next day after.

You wouldn't know.
But you know.

And you'll realize that people were
wrong when they said that life is
a pocket full of happiness.
They are wrong.
And so are you.

You are wrong believing them.

Look up to the sky
From your heart and your mind
To see what is true
To guide you through
-The only thing far is to exist
You can reminisce but don’t live there
The purpose of all life is learning
Over stand that be aware
Once you know the truth, don’t you go and tell no lie
Every life that’s born
Is also, meant to die
-*There’s only one race, of all Gods mankind
And that’s us the Human,
Full of variety by divine design
Times a straight curve abound
Just like ripples of sound
Be cautious in your actions
Cause what goes around, makes it back around
Pursue inclusion, not Exclusion!
Sincere just love, is the solution
For tomorrows without sorrows
Can you feel it down in your bone marrow
Call it Jai, or Allah, or better generic
G O D
Contained within the universe, inside of us
Is spirituality
LOOK UP TO THE SKY, FROM YOUR HEART & YOUR THIRD EYE
AND SEE WHAT IS TRUE, TO GUIDE WHAT YOU SHOULD DO
LOOK UP TO THE SKY, FROM YOUR HEART & YOUR THIRD EYE
AND SEE WHAT IS TRUE, TO GUIDE WHAT YOU SHOULD DO
Now people look around
Work on every single frown
We must find common ground
And we can turn the world around
You gotta Do It Yesterday
Cause tomorrow is too late
This life here is for the living
Its your life you’ve been given
And so the choices that you make
Will either aid us or forsake
Everything the maker built up
Helix DNA, -Space traveler
Third Eye Mantra
As it was told to me, by the Almighty
Open up your third eye
And your heart, so you can see
Ya gotta
LOOK UP TO THE SKY, FROM YOUR HEART & YOUR THIRD EYE
AND SEE WHAT IS TRUE, TO GUIDE WHAT YOU SHOULD DO
LOOK UP TO THE SKY, FROM YOUR HEART & YOUR THIRD EYE
AND SEE WHAT IS TRUE, TO GUIDE WHAT YOU SHOULD DO
To guide what you should do
To see what is true
It’s what God wants for you
It’s what God wants for you

To myself I make a promise,
A vow to be all I can be;
To live up to my full promise,
To the true potential in me.