I miss you more than I can say,
The urge to text won’t go away.
My fingers hover, heart beats fast,
But then I think about our past.

The red flags waving, clear and loud,
The way you dimmed what once was proud.
The nights I cried, the stupid fights,
The way you stole my peaceful nights.

I tell myself, just one “hello,”
But what’s the point? I truly know.
I’d never step back through that door,
I’m not that girl, not anymore.

So though my heart still aches for you,
My mind recalls what pain can do.
And in that truth, I see the proof—
It’s not worth losing all my youth.

We had our chance, I let it fall,
I won’t be broken when I’ve healed it all.
So missing you is just a phase—
I’m stronger now, in brighter days.

tell me, truthfully,
did you really even care?
say it with your chest.

..

it felt like you were never there.

tell me, truthfully,
did you ever really hear me?
my weeping and self-doubt..
i know you never paid a thought.

i cried over you.

i exhausted myself for you.

i contemplated everything.

..

but i did it for you..

maybe it was me,
******* up and wrecking things.
i know i was broken,
i still am,
but you never tried to fix me.

im so sorry,
you probably didnt even care,
why should you have?

it was my fault all along.

My tired eyes,
a mix of grey and blue,
theyve grown so tired of all the lies.

oh if only you knew,
oh if only you saw.

saw the damage youve done to me,
you make it seem like i must follow your every law.
if i dont, youll just leave me alone.
youll just leave me be.

you say you love me,
tell me,
what does love even mean to you?

If we were meant to walk different roads,
why was I led to this turn?
Still haunted by the past,
yet somehow, it’s the only thing pulling me forward.
Since we met, I’ve compared everyone to you.

They’re all made of glass.
I see right through them.
And no matter how long I look,
there’s nothing beneath the surface.

Sometimes a "hello"
can be the beginning
of another 3 years of therapy
so I don't reply.

~I'm sorry
but not really
~I'll try harder
when I hurt you tomorrow.

The beast in my breast
is a glutton for revenge
it only stays close
to feed on your sorrow.

Oh how I hate you now
that you love me so much
way back when the tables were turned
you had me for lunch.

You cut my heart out
I lay like a pig on the dining room table
eyes wide open
your mouth even wider
when I heard that sickening crunch.

Now same as you I burn the next fool
who would have known
that it was going to be you.

now you beg for your life
and say that your sorry
but I've heard it all before
so I give you
My Un-apologies

You lay on the dining room table
eyes wide open
my mouth even wider
when you hear that delectable crunch.