Surrounded by everyone,
Surrounded by everyone,
Yet feels so alone ,
No one understands,
understands of what I am going through,

I wake up with miserable thoughts,
I toss and turn;
Can't fall asleep anymore

I hate this feeling you are putting me through,
How do I heal myself,
Please I am begging them
How will I heal
When there's no motivation to try anymore
ugh...

Okay so maybe I did cut my hair because I was depressed
and what's wrong with that if I did
a healthy release right
it's not something that I regretted
and I wasn't crying while I did it so
isn't it a good thing
even if that's all shaving my head did
was get me to stop crying for the 10 minutes it took for me to shave it clean
isn't that a good enough excuse
cuz it's a **** good excuse for me

My mind is like a collapsed lung,
I try to breath in unimpeded speculation
that will not be tainted by the deflated
breath on my sanity.

I have to exhale deep into my mind
but I can't deal with the intentions that
serenade on my thoughts like a canary
singings its death song in a felines jaws.

Welcome to my mind tucked in quick
sinking dejection, but there is no place
only the perceiving moments.
My derelict thoughts are hard to linger.

Forgive me,
If my lips
Find others
After you.

Forgive me,
If my mind
Does nothing
But to think of you.

Forgive me,
If I miss
Every single
Thing of you.

Forgive me,
If I hate
The one
Who take you.

Forgive me,
If I still
Love you.

She found a
ending
not quite what she had
expected.

Dropping into the void of
herself
was all she knew.

And she knew that all she ever wanted
was
to be wanted,

what a shame.