It will be a life of loss isn't it my lover
And maybe an eternity before
I find what I'm looking for
Before I can tell you about
the ones who broke my heart
Before I can laugh all this pain away,

Im going to get lost and take another pill
just so I can
Feel a little bit normal once in my life
Or be loved by somebody for once
Then get drunk on happiness  

I'm going to keep  
Crying about why people say I never try
And feeling left out and patronized
And you know what's funny?
I can't tell you about any of this
Even when you ask
what's wrong with me
Cuz you won't understand
You're not flawed and strange like me

I'm going to be lonely
With my soul in a locker
And I'm going to have to blame it on
Myself
Isn't that right?

Love is a game between two
A game for the sick who are through
Blind from the maddening truth
That were all just little dancing fools

But we keep replaying our parts
Every verse spun from the start
Trapped in the fear of falling apart
were all just immature hearts

People aren't pieces of meat on a butchers rack.

Commodities to be swept past.

The scathing swipe of the left hand that sweeps past the cuts of meat only fit for a stew of **** *** and crap conversation.

The meaningless yet flirtatious swipe of the right hand which hopes to kindle a fire which doesn't lend to complete disappointment.

I'm not on a high horse,
It would be a lie to say I haven't tried it.

A bio with my finest non achievements.

The pictures of my face where the bags under my eyes are only a light shade of brown.
The forced smile beams without blinding completely.

You probably didn't look at my profile though.

I didn't look at yours.

We both motioned our hands to either the left or the right.

We're both pieces of meat in the same butchers shop.

Party. Party. Party.

All they want to know
Is it worth it to go?
Dressed up, messed up
Party. Party. Party.

All they'll ever do
Forget me and you
We'll go party too
Party. Party. Party.

Not a thought in your empty head
As I'm crawling in your bed
I'll never let you in mine
Party. Party. Party.

Keep my heart and mind apart
When's the party gonna start?
6-inch heels and blurry eyes
Party. Party. Party.

Party in the day time
Party in the night time
Party all the ******* time
Party. Party. Party.

All they ever ask
Where you keep your hidden flask
Dressed up, messed up
Party. Party. Party.

Crystalline shimmer
dancing in the background
lost to darkness thick
hated by so many
missed by so very few
fearing to be the one
only one to fall

Waiting for sunshine
thinking solely of absence
not pessimistic but cynical
watching closely the stars
hoping for that failure
just a single one
only one to fall

Crystalline shimmer
standing on the brink
peering over the cliff
never daring to jump
ignorant of its magnitude
broken masses led by the
only one to fall

Love is magical
But it made me cynical
It was a horrible fantasy
That kept me in misery