You always said you loved me
you always said you cared
That you would always be with me
that you would always be there

You told me that you are here for me
through all the pain I feel
You told me that you are with me
till your very last meal

But you were never there
through all those endless nights
You could never stop the crying
after all those fights

My heart tore
and you just walked away
my happiness went up in smoke
everything looked gray

now after all that's happened
all the lies you told
how could you lie again
how could you be so bold

You say it again
"you are here for me"
if I'm here for you back
sure I'll be there
and I'll care
you know that that's a fact

But will you be here
for me
till the very end?

don't lie again
you are not my friend
my heart you could never mend

I gave you trust
you told me lies
I gave you hope
I can see it in your eyes

Please don't lie
We both know
you could never be there
to wipe my tears
or vanish my fears
you could never care

Feeling down, alone, and empty inside,
Decisions to make, but can't decide,
Hurt from pain of a broken heart,
Days go on as if they are dark,
Looking for happiness, the light to return,
My soul feels empty, deceptive, a burn.

What does forever mean to you?
When you couldn't even keep it true
You said were you'd forever be there
But were those just words pulled from thin air?
Did you actually love me?
Did you really see the feelings I see?
The truth, the love, the loyal tears
The betrayal, hate, and the fear
I thought you felt the same
That you would cover me in the rain
I thought forever and always was forever
But now there's not an us…never
You said you'd always be there for me
But now I truly see
That you never saw the feelings in my soul
Now you've pierced my heart with a hole
But my heart has healed
Now I have friends that are real
And you're gone out of my life
Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
I thought forever was forever not just a word
But I guess that's not what I heard…

I lay here to night in a dark silent room,
Feeling only pain and uncontrollable gloom.
Pictures of the blood flash in my head,
Pictures of you laying on the floor dead.
Never to come back and mess up my life,
I smile as I wipe your blood from my knife.
Your darkened red blood spills out on the street,
Your Colden heart stop DEAD in its beat,
I think back to all the pain and the hurt,
As I cover your body and spit on the dirt.
From you or you GAME I Can no longer run,
And me killing you was my turn for FUN.
Oh how they'll cry and Oh how they'll weep,
But I know their Sorrow is ONLY SKIN DEEP.
As I turn to walk down the cold empty street,
I walk to the rhythm your heart USED to beat.
I think Back to you lying dead on the floor
And SMILE knowing your heart beats NO MORE!!!!!!!!

"Our life is like a thorny rose
Not perfect, but
Always beautiful"

The thorns represent
The hardships in our lives.
The delicate red petals represent
The fun and beautiful things in our lives.
As a young rose
The petals hugging around the seed
Are the family and friends who protect, love, and care for us.

There is nothing but darkness in my heart.
And only you can fix that.
The darkness spreads from here to there.
You saw me fall and you caught me.

My scars, they burst.
I sent my pain through out the earth.
You stitched up my scars and taught me how to love again.

I never tell you how much you're appreciated.
I beyond grateful to have you in my life.
You slowly **** my pain.
Lost and insecure, you found me.

I'm in love with you, and
all of the things that hurt and sing
when it comes to loving you.
Tell me you feel the same way, too.
Who needs friends when we're together.
I know you'll never leave me,
Because we're meant to be forever.

I miss you
I love you
I hate myself
I wanna die
Just **** me now, wait
I'm to big to cry

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

A chill in the air awoke her
And she pulled her blankets tight
The ***** was running strong
It had been a good night
She felt sick and tried to sleep again
Relaxed and breathed a sigh
The room was dark and
She could still taste the rye

She laid there dazed and lazy
But, something was not right
She felt the need to investigate
The darkness in of the night
She sat up , rubbed her eyes
And looked over at his side
When she didn't see her
A fear crept up inside

She knew something was wrong
She is never up this late
Now her curiosity
Would make her investigate
She strained her ears to listen
Hoping she could hear her
But she couldn't hear a thing
Only her heart beating fear

She stood up and walked to the door
And pause one more time
Again she heard no sound
But saw a dull lights shine
It came from downstairs somewhere
And she knew she must be here
She went down the stairs to find her
And grab another beer

She went down the stairs slowly
And turned the corner to the hall
Took two steps to the kitchen
Two steps that was all
She stopped and stood silent
Her body frozen in shock
Her mind trying to comprehend
As time ticked off the clock
She watched the look of pleasure
The passion in her eye
As she took everything he had
And gave it to another guy

Her body began to tremble
Her emotions ran hot
She was going to **** them
Right there on the spot
She walked into the kitchen
And tried to grab a knife
She wasn't going to listen
Just going to take their life

They heard her open drawers
And panic filled the air
They were caught red handed
But could only just stand there

She screamed at them and threatened
And smashed everything in sight
This was it for him
She would deal with this tonight

She tried to walk up and grab her
But something held her in place
She knew something was wrong
By the pain on her face

She fell down on the floor
Overwhelmed with grief
She knew it was too much
She would find no relief
The pain was too much for her
And she began to fade
The anger in her blood
Spilling out along her blade
All the screams became silent
And she felt no more fear
This day would never shine on her
For she would not be here

Se prayed the dark would come
And take him away
She would not have to feel this
For even one lonely day
Her body shook and she knew
That her time was near
When she came to hold her
And whispered in her ear

I'm sorry love, you know I am
Please don't leave me now
I'm so sorry, please don't die
I'll make it up some how

She told the man to call for help
And tried to save her life
Her last words to her were
I wanted you to be my wife