i haven't forgotten the way you stole our first kiss from my mouth
or the way your fingers twitched at a feign of defiance
the way you've swallowed my voice
akin to the way you hold my thighs
with possession
in a sordid poem three years past I wrote the warm joy, tenderness and unbridled growth
i hate the way my mouth tastes under yours
the filth of stagnation
the lifeless shape i assume alongside yours
makes me wonder if a concept of partnership
was another bad, damp dream
yet i've got to question whether
another set of hands would soothe me
just as well when i wake,
begging **** me **** me **** me
my frantic offends you
my brain like a gasoline fire
your disinterest like that necklace
i can't take off
special thanks to billie eilish
