hi, i'm blonde now.

and everyone loves it so much
but why?
why you people like this simple color
it's so boring and plain
ohhhh i hate it so much

it remainds me of perfection
it's just like BARBIE
that freaking doll
and you all like it
and i'm starting to hate
you all for that!

BE HAPPY. HAPPINESS IS A CHOSE. THINKING HAPPY THOUGHTS HELPS YOU TO BE POSITIVE. positive. negative. pluses and minuses. bad and good. positive positiveness. smiling, joking, laughing. SMILE! BE YOURSELF. so if I like crying.. NO! STOP DON"T SAY THAT. wait what? BE POSITIVE! so being yourself isn't positive? NO NOT LIKE THAT! so like what? FIRST OF ALL SMILE. but smiling isn't my thing.. WE CAN"T BE FRIENDS. why? NEGATIVENESS ISN'T MY THING. so negatively positive. i like that!

i'm wondering do you hate me
because you are avoiding me
i think we ended it all together
because it was both of our faults

why are we strangers now

we both together didn't work and so what
some of people aren't meant for each other
but that doesn't mean that i don't want you in my life
why all of us are assuming something
we even doesn't ask face to face
we just assuming
i'm guilty too
maybe you don't want people like me in your life
maybe you don't hate me, just don't want me
HA what's better
it all turned even worse


Hey!
can i ask you a personal question?
Do You Hate me?

we easily **** ourselves
because we know our worth
our purpose, our lives path
but to point a gun to someone else
is harder, way harder
we don't know their reasons
their messed up childhood
or their fears

so to rule over someones life
we have to live that life

ohh darlin' waiting is hurtful i know
but why you didn't wait just a little longer
..
ohh we could have been so much more
that what we had even wasn't a thing
..
ohh this after taste is killing me
i wasn't ready for you but i let you in
..
ohh but you didn't wait
you wanted all at the same time
..
ohh what have we both done?

when ever i push delete button
i press it few more times
even there isn't anything to delete
'cause i'm hoping
it could delete
all my mistakes
my ****** up life mistakes
and maybe even my life

this numbness
when i don't want to push
these buttons
but words are flowing
and feelings are gone
for everything
and nothing has a reason

i hate this feeling