A smile is all she gives, it matters not to her
But life is full of promise and darkness
Never one with out the other and the web reaches all
Why one reason for living? Why not all?
So she takes all that her forms provide
Sight, flight, touch and sense
Intangible and changeable
Solid and fixed, fast and slow
Why settle when there's so much more?
Speech isn't needed to listen
Eyes aren't needed to see
And so she goes without

I chose this
Made this mask I wear
Blank faced china is all that will apear
No emotions, happy, angery, nothing shows
Not because it was forced on me
But so I learn and see without you noticing
No features so you must know me
My actions not superfical traits
Are what must be judged now

A shrug is all she gives to them
A simple I'm alright, just tired to ease them
The questions stopped coming then
All she has is what she knows about the world around her
This tiredness won't go until
She finds a better cage for herself
And so she says It's alright, I'm good
To find her way

Her heart pounds, a thunder in he veins
Pulsing bright and red and deep within
Courage took farflung flight long ago
Before the journey was to be made

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

There was silence before this, quiet as a grave
And the streets were filled with happy feet
It slept alone then, on all it found to keep
No overlap or closeness to be feared.

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

And then life wasn't what she'd been promised
He threated a hell on earth should she think even of what she knew
Blows came when the words stopped coming
Maybe there wasn't anything in the big white clouds up there

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

So she left alone, running away from it all
Nowhere to go and none to care what happened out there
Feet chased a path along a clif's side
Found another path hidden inside

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Came upon the sleeping one
Belly deep in shining rings, golden plates, precious stones
All of the leavings of those that had gone before
It earned them all fairly

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Surely they wouldn't notice just one cup?
One cup for freedom, one cup for a new life
One for the time she spent running from no escape
So she took it and fled

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

A stirring spread thourgh that scaly pile
Orange orbs snapping open, knowing something was gone
That cup the mother'd drank from at the king's court
When magic was still thick and the world thought less of monsters

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Wings unfirled and death came that night on quiet wings
Fire broke the night, people died, fleeing anyway they could
Those earth riches where all that's left
Before men came and took what they thought they owned

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Day rose to a ruined place
Choacked grey black, shifting with winds
Villages left that day for the reasons where not known
But she knew and it did as well

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Journey came with baited breath
She knew it would come again with hot breath and burning eyes
Maybe there would be nothing left again
Death would come again

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Head raises, hissing scales of ash, long strong neck
Those eyes shine brighter now
Tips of wings touch staggered points of topside
Ready to reclaim a life

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Quick and slow she bends, quicker hands holding out
Uncurling fingers flex apart and the cup is placed
Once more in its rightful place
Them or her, chosen to make right

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Thin wings settle again to the strong sides
Ribs show their ridges against the jeweled belly
What's this human who would give back what it took?
Dangerous points part in black stone gums

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

You'd give thisss for them and what you ssstole?
Hissing air breath, a volcano's hiss
Wide eyes and hesitant hands reply
"Many more here that you don't deserve but they don't either."

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Slow shifting seething motion
Tail like rope unwinding from the center
Weak legs bend and don't break
Eggshells lay safe in the last grey curl

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

Small bones, little skull and empty eyes
Young mother happy once then
Men broke the home with sharp points
Young mother no longer

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

She sees broken bones, human heads burned
Nothing could bring the hatchling back, piece the pierced back
It had stayed to die in silence no reason left
No food to be found, no water to drink

Feet crushed the ashes spilled
When they fell in a spiral across the village
They left the buildings empty since
Fire takes all

The girl leaves and goes
A secret to keep for the old mother
Until the body lies forgotten and the earth takes back
No one to touch the shining seas

You didn't tell me,
Never said it would be easier your way
I knew I had to find it apart
Tell me you know me,
But not that you needed to
I never knew it would be this hard
You didn't tell me that either
I found it myself

The ***** in your chest
That makes blood flow around your body
Feelings and emotions
Considered as part of your character
The central part of something,
That is farthest from the outside
A shape that represents love

It swells out and undulates in the breezes
Constant push and pull spreads the layers thinner
Colors bleed out a long time before
Fabrics beat against weathered wood bones
This house longs for something to fill its stomach
And slowly the waving banners fall to sunlight

There was something
A boiling burning ash that kept me from you
Oil black and binding poured through my throat
I choked on the words of my lips
And so let you go, spiraling away
Oblivion always awaited you
In the blinding redness there was no one to save
You will never again know the twisted passages
Of the central part of something, that is farthest from the outside
Others hold so dear

I think we never left our homes
Dreaming with stuffy noses and sore heads
But far from done in the day

Pressure building around eye sockets
Take another breath and get some rest
Too many are sick at heart

Journey's too long to take
So we follow each other down to home
And rest our heads sunday afternoon

So we know we never left
Never will
Until the sun fades

She rolls her lip beneath her teeth
Another scab to add to the dusty corners
But it doesn't matter and it never did

Till the stream runs dry and the dirt cracks
Paper thin skin will have its seams
She's a camel without a desert

The red mouth's been pricked and poked
Never wet enough for the thirst to stop
Born without water though her breath forms vapours

Here comes the start
Words bottlenecking against folds of the brain
Paper remains unstained
Blank sheet, swirling mind

There'll be more of this to come

I could be the wings that shelter you
Though an angel I may not be
Nor am I demon for my soul is only gray

This stone's face you see is only what I show
Frozen volcano beneath the dark of snow
Get close enough to feel the warmth but watch for the glow

For now I'll be your shelter
But tomorrow I'll be a storm
Come close if the heat is something that frightens not
Something cares still in this hollow heart

She's always been a shifer
A faceless creature lurking behind the scenes
A thousand guises to pain over the
Grey canvas of colors adorning

In the web she's spun, she's no spider
Only a dancer on the strings she's strung
Oh many know her where the forest dwells
Though no one sees her

A flick of a hand brings new features
She speaks through many throats and tounges
There's many hands that claim to match
But only one fingerprint remains

Who's to really know the looker?
Not the characters she plays nor those who think they're closer
A secert not worth knowing but always kept
A deviation that's all she is

If I could reach you and hold you
I would never drop you like they have
Nothing so fragile should be abandoned without care

Like a bird's nest cupped between two plams
Or a sliver of stained glass
I'll keep you safe from harm and smooth out your sharp edges
But only if you want me to

I've been through this too
The one that gets thrown away when the day ends
I'll be the last one to treat you that way
You deserve more than I have to offer

We are brightness aren't we?
Rings of the yellow glow across our pelts whenever we touch
So let us overlap again, my head and your heart
Keep this warmness with us please
No wish to return to the cold dark of our lonely places
Just share this gold with me and carry it on your crown
When we must part

What is he?
Fear...yes, definitely fear
Not just the weak and wobbly anxiety that feasts on the insides
But the kind that stands up and paints a bright
Confidence over it, masking the emptiness
The kind that fills him over others

There are many fears
Athazagoraphobia
Autophobia
Separation anxiety
It's just who he is

Well I have hope in a road
And I stared often out these doors
Walked through those thirsting there
So you threw sand to me

In talks often he is here,
He turns your earth into gold
And though you start to break through
How long standing forgotten?

Cause you dance, you yearn
You yearn to grow
You, you
You

You shout to know
You shout through
Turn to old
You

A small smile though the words are sad
She shares the same concept and always has.
They'll leave or you'll leave, what does it matter who goes first?
The years have begun to weigh though
She wishes she had more minds to trouble.

What's the point of existence without something to care for?
Every single time, loss and hurt
Someone to love and make a difference
For a short while at least.

And the pain reminded you
You were at least partially alive
Something that wasn't always so apparent.

You were something once weren't you darling?
Something open and bright

Now your closed up and dark inside
Hollow like a bottle chocked with dust

Another workload, strong enough to break
Troubling the edges of days with its shadow
Ready for another crinkly failure thrown against the wall?

You know,
Might as well give before they take
Drown 'em in honey and vice
They'll leave you empty, empty inside

Can't take nothing but love where you're going
And we'll all have to leave
So might as well give what you take

Don't make more empty because of your mistakes
Give more than they take

So the sunshine came again?
I stand here alone over the ages
Days spent with no one but myself
I tell you the sunshine never ends

But when the darkness comes...
I'm afraid to close my eyes
Did you know?
Did you know the sun is gonna die?

This could be the last day
The last golden light
Finally the darkness releases the light
Streaming beams coming alive

Look into the sun as a new day rise
Flood your eyes with heat and bright
One more day for us to still be
Alive

It's an exodus
Not as frantic frenzied as space between classes
Slow and relaxed like a blood flow
We're the arteries of this school
Keep it alive with footstep heartbeats

After we leave this will be empty
New blood to flush out the old
Barely enough to keep alive
Until summer goes again

But I won't come back then

It's the first week, what could go wrong?
Stress cameback the first time
Late at night trying to find the words
AP English is crucial to me

Granma's up late and I can't let her sleep
Gotta go to the end or I'll just fall
A+ or F you decide

But honestly?
**** this

And it's a Sunday
Day of rest
But oh, there'll be no rest for me yet
No, not yet

TOO MUCH.
He’s awake now, struggling now, breathing now, living now.
And it’s too much too late, don’t know how much of this I can take.
There’s not enough of me left now.
Breaking seems evident, a tornado in a bottle’s neck.
Choking on the words left unsaid, I am ****** and I am dead.
Family’s fine, too much too hold. Too much to hope for.

You couldn't help, you’d be better off dead.
Been screaming on the inside,
words tumbling black and slick from broken lips.
Keep it in, keep it concealed.
They can’t know what you feel.
The demon’s back and I’m going under.
This storm won’t be contained anymore.
The tidal wave’s heading towards the shore.

I don’t have that much to give.
Take it all before I resist.
Too much too soon, too little too late.
Spread myself thin for the past few days.
Nothing left but stained glass hearts and swollen throats.
No outlet for a soul like mine. It’s too dark to find me inside.
The screams come louder bringing blood.
Sob on for every tear, where the forest meets it’s end. Cry on for the memories.
The grandson you can’t help, the child you let go to hell, the grand daughters you never knew.

This is your ending demon.
No time could ever make you wise,
what god are you to fall again?
This is your ending demon,
now you get to watch them die.

*You deserve this.

We were warm in that sunlight
Love ran thick in succulent leaves
Unfolding when the day would fade

Moving in the sunlight as the shadows chased
Dusty gray green happiness
Even keeled gentle curves of feeling
Rosy blush edging our forevers
Blunted points of conversations

We can last long on the waters we keep
Though we separate as time goes by
Conjoined in a cluster at the base of our relationship

Our love is like the succulents
Long lasting,
Long lived

I don't want it
Where the hell have you gone?
This is freedom, no one at all to care for
No one to care for you
Loneliness

I don't want freedom
Not if you'll be gone
The ground would be better
With you not here

I don't want this freedom
*Come back to me

School happened and now summer is gone.
Draining away the sunlight and sending shadows to take us into the houses, backs bent over paper starts and signatures.
Farewell to freedom.
I'll send one last goodbye to the races.
One more year and future will be mine to chart.

It was just a cylinder
Shiny bronze sides as straight as a stick.
A grip of clingy rubber that often
rode up wrapped
around the sides.

Plastic and metal,
a latch to keep it closed.
Dents littered the sides and top
from many sudden drops and rolling away
to hide under cars.

Ice put inside its belly
could last for hours,
sometimes days
and the water
that poured
from its mouth
was always shockingly,
wonderfully cold.

There was something silent, shifting, swelling
growing in the cavern of the stairs
Something hidden in the bones of that old house
A flicker, a start, light shining off of eyes
In that old house.

"You'll leave. Everyone does."

Four words spoken from the heart
Weary little one, the truth is often heavy is it not?
You're so earnest dear, how many have you seen go?
Close my eyes, bow my head
The truth is hard to blind

"Yes. I've always been a leaver....why stay went no one else does?"

I look at her, eyes narrowed
Something as big as her, scared?
You can go, leave anytime you want
Seek what you must
I remain here.
No matter what.

"Of course you'll go! No one cares about Ird!"

Oh little creature....don't you know?
If you love it let it go
This world will forget me, drag me down and **** me
I'll fade from your memory too
I can never stay.

"I do. I-I can't stay, I'll be here until the end of time."

Red hot days and blistering nights
I'm too tired to care
Too tired to fight

I was something now I'm not
Hold on to your heart
Touch and tame or rip apart

Bring up the past
It's time to dredge up
the water under that bridge
And we'll burn that bridge when we come to it

I'm not yours
To touch or tame
I'll take out your heart and paint
these walls with red words

I'm something I'm not
Shift too fast to hold
Words are papercuts to the mind
We'll play this game again

Well boy,
don't you dare follow that light

Silence lingers here,
Between the branches and sunlight.
Peace will always be.

How did they come here?
The bright orbs of molten gold
Resting on our crowns.

We will figure out
Through the growth of deer abound
The secret of life.

Not everyone can be saved it seems.

One more’s gone and many more have followed, perhaps a return will come in time.

Perhaps not.

Sometimes time won’t heal wounds.

If I could be braver…stronger in the face of eddies and tides perhaps this would end different.

But I’ve always been a coward.

Too high and mighty to let this place get under my skin.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t care.

I do.

A lot.

I just don’t say it, won’t say it for everyone to hear.

I’m sorry it had to end this way.

Buzzing, pulsing, rending, tearing
Fill the air with screams unending
Stingers strong and wings of paper
Fill us, fill you
Hell on noisy wings

Death spills from open lips
Twist around the syllables
Queens that won’t grow old

Lock your windows, close your doors
Doesn’t really matter anymore
Every crack is a doorway
Screaming won’t save you

Oh haven’t you heard?
Haven’t you learned?
I’m the man with wasps in his belly

When you are everything you are always nothing
Waiting and wishing for something not fit find
Reaching out in to darkness and always wishing for light
Red and gold are embers that fill Star's Sky
Painting on colors that will slowly wilt and die
Sunset's the cause of the chaos that makes this worth our fight
Wishing, wishing further for something not fit to find
And we'll be causing our chaos
Something that's fit for the night

To be honest I am something but nothing
Everywhere and nowhere
Amorphous, free falling, solid
Tangible, intangible
Beyond comprehension
A Shape
Nothing more
Simple
Things
Stay with us

I was told to go alone
Blood on the breezes
Far away I've flown
Enduring all the seasons
The seams have all been blown
Millions of reasons
Traveled every road known
But now I'm coming home
We're coming home.

I have a longing
For old friends
For old places
For old conversations

I had a longing for new faces
New places
New found friends
New words
New days
New life

I realized
That new pain only builds the old
New friends shall be lost
Conversations go bad
Every place becomes the same
Love doesn't come twice

In old thoughts
I know myself
In old conversations
I know what needs to be said
In old places
I know my way around
Old friends are dead and gone

Old thoughts
Old words
Old spirit

I am no longer new

Amethyst petals lay undisturbed in the waxy moonlight.

Mice gather,
small ivory paws rustling silky petals,
coffee pelts glinting.

The comrades unite
in the hushed, swirling darkness
beneath the seasoned porch.