Her story is always the same
She tells me all her lies
She claims to think I'm perfect
And I believe her every time

Alone at night she calls
And I always run her way
She uses me for her selfish wants
And leaves me begging her to stay

I know I'm second place
But at this point I don't mind
I worship the ground she walks on
And her using me is fine

I'm on a journey
To find
What I lost
My soul
My spirit
My mind//
No map
No compass
No GPS
Can find
What I'm
Searching for//
A soul cleanse
Rediscovery
Unity
I crave it
I'll catch it
I'll become it//

I'm not gonna lie
I think you're beautiful
Your aesthetic
Quite fine

I feel intrigued when
I stare into your eyes
My heart beats
A little faster each time

But curiously
I don't love you
Or think I do
Or even think I like you

You're just gorgeous
And I want to stare
And smile
But that's it

I was under the notion
That I could use you
To tape together
My broken pieces

I was under the impression
That I could use you
To sew
My heart back together

But all of that
Is a dim illusion
Because I'm still
As broken as before

~~~~~~II~~~~~~

I tried to fill up
All the holes in my heart
With you
But you don't fit

I feel like I'm looking in
And watching us kiss
I'm not in the moment
I'm somewhere else

I tried I really did
To love you
And make this work
But I'm still broken

The beat of my heart,
Us woven in your car.
The heat up warm,
Loud, clean alarm.

Your lips on mine,
Distanced white line.
Bodies intertwined,
I knew you fine.

The windows steamed,
A midnight's dream.
Sparkle in your eyes,
They tell no lies.

Pushed me down.
Home, I found.
The patter of rain,
Can't stop a flame.

Thank god
I can look back
And laugh
In your face

You weren't ever pretty
But rather
You
******

No beauty
Or heart
No character
*******

I don't know why
I ever loved you
Cause oh *******
I made a mistake