i do not play the part
of a princess or a
damsel
i am
the dragon.
the soldier.
the knight.

with you,
every "i love you"
was followed by an
exception as to why
you can't

i wanted to fill the
darkness in your head
with stars cut from
every wish i made
about you

i've grown tired
of living
in a world
full of noise

when i first met you,
you were a beautiful
blue green ocean
and
your waves kissed me
before i fell asleep
and every night
i got used to
hearing you crash
against my shoreline
drifting me to sleep

but then one day
your body turned
a violent shade
of gray as
your waves roae
above me
before crashing into
me and drowning
my heart
in the waves
that once kissed me
ever so gently

if my soul is
the ballroom,
then harmony and poetry
are [the lovers]
that danced
[past midnight]

i hate writing about
the things you did to me
because as i'm sitting here
bleeding out from
the wounds you plastered
on my skin
treating my body as if it was
your personal
practice canvas,
you are going about
your life as if you
didn't permanently
make my mind so
******* fragile

so i refuse to
bleed your name
through each and every
one of these pages
i refuse to let you
think after all these
years you still have
power over me