Esther

Esther Sep 2020

i noticed
on our way back to the bus stop
you offered to carry my bag
it felt like a weight lifted off my chest

i guess
you're a flawless angel
having hit hell's rock bottom
i don't want to stain you like a bottle of wine

i swear
when you said you wanted to kiss me on the cheek
before i stepped on the bus
i could've loved you then

i'm caught in the middle
you saw me right through
wanting a new start
yet struggling to let go.

let's see where this goes, joe

#this #poem #is #**** #haha

Esther Aug 2020

melancholy

when holding your hand
becomes holding my breath
so that i don't cry out loud
and wake everybody in the house

why can't i keep anyone?

#melancholy #sad #depressed #love #loss #cry

Esther Aug 2020

epiphany

you know
if we never moved
perhaps we could stop time
everything would be frozen
in this infinite moment
the stars would stay in the same position
on this deep blue canvas
if we never left that beach
everything would stay still
if we never moved
you know

living our lives out in a painting, chasing after you beneath the stars 🌌

#epiphany #realisation #lingering #love #loss #imagination

Esther Aug 2020

visions

i have touched you for the last time
with hope, i flew up to your arms
but you pushed me away for the first time
reminding me that you were never mine to lose

i have kissed you for the last time
remember that day
when you said you'd leave after this song
oh i hope the song never ends

i have loved you for the last time
with a heavy heart
i wrote this poem for you
with 3 words I will never say...

for ali.

#inspired #by #visions #of #gideon

Esther Jun 2020

dream, part 2

you made your mark on me
as our legs intertwined

how could i ever forget you
when all my clothes smell like you?

your scent lingers on my body
long after we said our last goodbyes

did you mean it
when you kissed me?

"appreciate what we had
rather than wishing for more"

you shattered my heart with words
when all it did was loving you.

another one for you, Matthew.

#heartbroken #dream #love #loss

Esther May 2020

I was your Northern Light, babe

Being chasing fires
Yet you were still a dream
Butterflies on the other side of the waterfall
Close, but can't seem to reach

You were a sandstorm
I was the Northern Light
Chaos
I guess i led you on.

@2;45pm
31/12/18

#love #loss #chaos

Esther Feb 2020

muse

you're my inspiration for this account

my muse, for every word i've written

my love, whom i've lost.

i hope you are well.

#muse #love #loss #lost #inspiration