Sometimes
I don't want to die
I just want to sleep
Until it's over.

But sometimes
I want to die
I just don't want
To **** myself.

It hurts to say I love you
Even though it's the truth

And it hurts hear those words
Coming from you too

It makes my heart ache
Because I can't have you

Go ahead and shout,
You'll find I don't really care--
I think it's rather cute
When you give me that glare.

How did we get into this mess love?
How did we end up here?
All I wanted was a friend
And then for a brief moment
You were so much more
And I could touch the stars above--
And then they took you away
How did we get into this mess love?

You said you'd love me
No matter what I did--
I understand

You said it was alright
To have bad days--
I understand

You said that I could
Make my own decision--
I understand

You said it was okay
If we disagreed--
I understand

I understand that they were
Empty words
And that in actuality
You want me to be
A Sunshine Girl
All the time

I understand.
I'll go back to faking my smile.
I'll go back to crying in secret.
If you want me to be happy
I will be.
Don't worry about me--
If you ever have, I mean.
It's alright.
I understand.

I feel like dancing
On silver moonbeams
And singing lullabies
To sparkling streams

I feel like flying
Just as high as I can
And holding the stars
In the palm of my hand.

I feel like jumping
To touch the clouds
I feel like spinning
Until I fall down

Is this happiness?
I'd almost forgot
What it felt like--
I've missed this a lot.